2006-10
26

与别不同

By xrspook @ 17:46:30 归类于: 烂日记

乱竹阵

有时人就是这样,不知道自己要干什么,乱成一团,但其实也是有其条理的不过当心情不好的时候什么都打成死结。

突然觉得时间过得好快好快,一眨眼就一个星期,做实验的时候时间尤其快,一下子就每了3、4个小时,而上课的时候则在混沌之中又没有了100分钟。100分钟原来是大学上一次课的基本单位嘛。期中没有考试只有论文,外力消失了就靠自己的内力维持正常的学习生活方式。这段时间在和一个同学搞冷战,我不知道冷战是怎么开始的,反正我不会做退让的那方。我保持沉默,当可以“发威”的时候讽刺一番,当自己要和别人搞对立的时候你会什么都看不顺眼,简直可以说你可以从她很基本的行为中挑出N多的刺。不能因此就责备她一番,于是就储积在心里,人就越来越“沉”,乌云密布。所以我下载了一个季的Monk来缓解缓解,每天看一集,笑笑,但主要原因还是我想每天都做做听力,学英语还是喜欢用些实用一点的方式。

前20年的生活让我对很多同龄人都十分感兴趣的东西都有很强的抗性。我对零食一点不感兴趣,我对漫画可以一点不碰,对于韩剧我只是觉得烦躁,对于港台流行曲我听而不闻,对于游戏我是个白痴,也不想改变这个局面……我到底是个什么样的人啊?!怎么可以这样,到底我的课余时间都拿去干什么了?回望一下,原来自懂事以来,只要有科技节目我都会疯狂地追,别人看连续剧的时间我在追科技节目,别人在看动画片的时候我在看体育比赛,别人在看漫画书的时候我在看一些武侠小说或非主流的外国小说,别人在听港台流行曲的时候我在广泛地听外文歌,开始的时候是英文后来是西班牙文。因为小时候身体极端不好,小孩子的我根本与零时无缘。这就是我为什么可以静下心来的原因,使我疯狂的因素很少出现,我所追求的东西不在我随便可以触及的地方。于是分析过后发现原来我不是很有抗性,只不过让我起反应的东西我接触不到而已。别人很难理解我,我也不了解他人“奇怪”的嗜好。

没有庆祝,没有奖励,打骂不少,抱怨更多,我已经习惯在这中有点变态的家庭环境中成长。所以我不知道如何给予别人鼓励,我只知道如何挑别人的刺,而且是不会留情的那种,妈从来都给我留情过。我不会安慰,妈不会给我安慰于是我觉得我也用不着接受别人的安慰。畸形的家庭长出了畸形的孩子。这就是独生的弊端,这就是太注重单家独户的弊端,我成了炮灰。我对某些东西有优点免疫的同时也同时存在如此致命的缺点。

要同化还是要发生变异?已经变异了,如何再同化回来?但我真的不甘心要随大流,我不要“同流合污”。不觉得主流就是优秀的,但做为“异类”承受的外力将好大好大。

2006-10
25

混战207

By xrspook @ 21:51:05 归类于: 烂日记

遥相望

图片是在做酶实验等待的时候拍的,正在100分钟浸渍的滤纸。

生物技术实验之二——用酶试纸法检测消毒液中的过氧化氢的含量,开战于院楼207。说是下午4:30开始,但不知道到底是什么时候开始,反正师兄不满意我们一堆人塞在后面,我则不满意他为什么就那么执着要把我们学号后面的人插到前面。到底这是谁的不是,我们的默认分组是顺着学号下去的,但前面的人却空开好多位置不坐,要我们后面的人插到他们之间的空隙中,这是什么道理。前面的人插空做就是道理,我们这些本来在后面的人一堆就是我们不合规矩,岂有此理。于是我的一个党员同学就用她平时在学生会(纪检部长)骂人的语气埋怨师兄,研究生师兄无语。我则用拉试管架(发出刺耳的声音)来附和同学的不满投诉。

实验很简单,就是把东西称了,把东西量了然后混在一起,等。首先是要溶解在1%的醋酸里溶解壳聚糖,这是个比较麻烦的过程,那东西在醋酸中溶解速度很慢,于是你就得不断搅拌,开始的时候甚至要先用摁的方法把大粒的先捣碎然后再搅拌,搅拌过程中会出现不少泡泡,大的小的都有,于是你就很难判断到底完全溶解了没有,于是就必须放置。今天不走运,别人的放置后是透明的而我们的则是相对浑浊,溶是溶解了,但到底是不是哪里不干净就没人知道。于是被迫在等待N久之后重新上路。

接着就是些很无聊的浸渍与清洗操作。然后就是最长的100分钟等待,是要把试纸放在0.8%的戊二醛溶液中浸泡,为的就是让壳聚糖和戊二醛结合。然后在后续操作中戊二醛再和酶结合,然后就做成酶试纸。

最讨厌的就是使用移液管吸东西的步骤。特别是最后的稀释,吸0.2mL 8μmol/L的过氧化氢到反应板(反应板的容量就是0.2mL,0.2mL就会让那个孔满了)的一个孔,然后在另外4个洞分别加入0.1mL的蒸馏水,从第一个孔吸出0.1mL 8μmol/L的过氧化氢加入到第二个孔中并反复吸取混匀,即配得4μmol/L的过氧化氢,如此操作重复4次。烦到了极点,一根长长的移液管,再在一个硕大的吸耳球结果就构成了“麻烦”。回到宿舍我才恍然大悟,我傻了,怎么用吸耳球呢,那么一点的溶液如果是在移液管上套上胶塞(就是滴管用的胶塞)一定能快很多也会准确很多。吸耳球,是吸大东西用的,那么0.1或0.2mL的量简直就是杀鸡用牛刀。于是,我们要做双倍的混匀工作,应该说任何工作都要做双倍,毋庸置疑,我组二人就首次变成了我班最后离开实验室的人,哎~~~~~~ “时运不齐,命途多舛”啊!!!

相比之下今天早上的“私人试验”就顺利得多,几乎没遇上什么大问题,最大的问题就是在快要做完的时候突然有人来实验室上课,于是杀了我们一个措手不及。今天把“小胖”的“准备室”收拾得好整齐,组足空出了2个篮子出来(一共有7个篮子,本来全部都是满满的,东西乱得不行)。很有成就感,想不到我们居然有那么多的试管,还有更多更多的三角瓶,以前一直找不到的移液管也都出来了,哎~~~~ 乱就会坏事。

晚上混战当中,我居然成了炮灰,哎~~~~~~~

2006-10
24

Because of Ambition

By xrspook @ 19:01:13 归类于: 烂日记

Red Heart, Ambition

Maybe it’s the last year I attend the sports meeting. As a junior in university, I’m the oldest who will play such game; senior won’t pay any attention at us. Just like the last chance in middle school and high school, an unbelievable ambition struggle me. I don’t know why, my heart ask me to do a better job this time. I can’t understand my heart, why just exert myself at the third year, the last time, shouldn’t we do our best in any time? Why we let a lot of chances flow away, and define some of are the most important one and then make a decision to create a miracle. That’s not fair, however, human being like playing such unfair show.

Everyday I quote out more and more day to do some sports. The only reason is to lose my weigh than I could run faster during the competition. I really want to do better, nevertheless, when others asked me why I rope skip this days, I gave them so an answer: To lose my weigh. Such kind of answer was not the whole truth at all. The mainly reason is I want to perform at that day, after that time, I’m sure I will stop all my sports right now. It’s not for the physical body shape of me but my ambition. Still remember my English teacher said there are two kinds of meaning of ambition: first, it means an eager or strong desire to achieve something, such as fame or power; then, it means the object or goal desired. My ambition has both meaning.

What an aspirant heart! What an ugly heart!

Today, all my roommates went to do some running. Some of us had our goal but the other just had fun. Running in the racetrack of Huashan playground, I really remember a lot. I can’t forget the days in that tennis course, the sun, the temperature, the classmates and the teacher. If I just a freshman, if I just 19 years old, if such it’s really truth, time must be turn back. The feeling in this playground was so strange; I even felt humanity there, even though in fact I didn’t familiar with it at all.

Time did not stand still, now, ambition control me. Ok, Ok, I put my hand up; I will follow your order, that’s all.

2006-10
23

I Want It That Way

By xrspook @ 16:36:13 归类于: 烂日记

I Want it That Way

Last night I went to bed at about 1:30 AM. I had a furious battle with the evils of my computer, and I am the last wonderful winner. I killed the Trojan virus in my computer which called “EXPLORER.EXE”. That kinds of Trojan died hard very much, so I should scarified something before I knock it down. At first I ordered my Kaspersky Anti-virus insulate that Trojan at this time, and then restarted my computer then entered safety model. And then started the Kaspersky Anti-virus at that model (because the Anti-virus can’t auto start there). The Anti-virus could find out the Trojan at once, and then you should according to the instrument then killed the Trojan manually. After that, you should restart your computer again; I must be very surprised that two windows of “My Document” will pop up. If you pay no attention to it, it will pop up every time after you start your computer. Nothing serious, but very annoy. The way of solving this problem is very easy; you just need to use the function “return back” your computer to a few weeks ago, however, the precondition is your system must be Windows XP or better. You can find that function in this way: Start – All the Program – Attachment – Tools of System – System Revert. You computer will all right after restart.

Half of my day was in biological laboratory again. Our team made a big mistake time after time. We really pay out a lot, but received such a little. My partner and I were the most unlucky one on earth, through the experiment we had to gain much more experience than others, there’s no double of it. On the other hand, we were lucky dog, we didn’t what was wrong until the last moment, and then when the ugly result came out, we took a tumble at the same time. You can laugh at our incaution, yet in out part we had done our best.

The beginning of the day was not so bad, all the things went on as usual, and the only problem was under others’ control, so we had to wait, wait and wait. During that time we used the sterilizers finished what we had to do, at the same time, we washed about 3 dozen of test tubes. Finishing the clearing was not easy as you aspect, first you should dip them in boiling water, because the agar inside was so bigotry, it’s very difficult to melt in normal temperature yet hot water and the boiling water is its big enemy. So we boiled the test tubes, after the agar melt we washed in normal way.

We saw our boss again! The last time we communicate with him was about two weeks ago. You couldn’t find him in his office, you won’t meet him in the laboratory, and you must be luck enough to see my tutor, my boss, the little fat man. We won’t see each other in the next few weeks, because he said he would go to Wuhan to participate a big meeting of microbiology in China. He tutor and also his boss asked him to go, so he left. We will have the time of ours from now on before he comes back. We didn’t have to go to his office or others place to find such a person to report our headway.

The evening came and the unfortunate came with it. It’s very difficult to remelt our mediums. What a bad luck! We had done what we could do, but our kid – the mediums seemed to kid us for about two hours. And then when we was about to declare we had finished the job today, we realized we did a big mistake again – the mediums were not enough, we should have 1000mL each but we just had 500mL at that time, however, all the culture dishes had been unseal. We did a great deal of useless effort again. In such situation, we both didn’t want to blame anyone, no one was wrong; we did the stupid thing all together. We even didn’t lose our heart; we just said to us we gained experience again. What monsters we are? How we did angry or depress at all? I don’t know why, maybe that’s why we run into a blank wall and recovery very soon. That’s the shining point of us and also the ridiculous point of us.

After all, we ended our job in the little prepared room with yuk. Two powerful girls was twiddle with bundle of keep fresh paper. We did our effort to cut it with a knife, it’s so difficult, and then we wringed it, draught it, hit it, and even use the knowledge in our professional class to slit it. All our force had been shown up, the tough keep fresh paper stand still. As used to be, we didn’t be angry but be happy very much with each other. At last, the keep fresh paper had been cut into two part, but with a very ugly face, we didn’t’ mean to, really!

I want it that way, a little stupid but innocent.

2006-10
22

木马又来了

By xrspook @ 22:08:43 归类于: 烂日记

ewido扫描

首先是家里的电脑的卡巴斯基反应说在system32\EXPLORER.EXE是木马,又不能直接删除,要重新启动后删除,但当重新启动,到达安全模式,用卡巴斯基删除该木马后,在重新进入Windows时奇怪的事情出现——在启动时莫名其妙弹出2个“我的文档”文件夹,而且是用了资源管理器启动的那种。怪到了极点,还以为是一时以外,但多次重启问题依旧。于是不得不“系统还原”。系统还原后,第一次进入Windows时奇怪地扫描我的C盘(就是非法关闭而扫描的那种),然后又说我“从一个严重错误中恢复过来”,莫名其妙。但再次重启后问题消失,在任务管理器中也只剩下一个Explorer.exe的进程了。

回到学校,卡巴斯基在自动更新后也同样提示我的电脑有如此一个system32\EXPLORER.EXE木马,于是就进入安全模式用ewido扫描,已经扫过一次,没反应,再次重启进入安全模式仍旧看到那个该死的C:\WINDOWS\system32\EXPLORER.EXE在我的启动项,这就是木马。而在进程中也有一个C:\WINDOWS\Explorer.EXE的进程,这才是“正版”。看看它们的图标就知道了,system32文件夹下的那个东东资料显示既不是“Internet”也不是“服务”,一个无用的东西,是个木马就是了。再次启动ewido扫描,还是没有发现system32\EXPLORER.EXE是个特洛伊坏蛋。就卡巴斯基的分析,这个冒充EXPLORER.EXE的东西,是个叫做Trojan.Win32.VB.atv的特洛伊木马。

没办法之下之下只能用家的处理方法翻版一次。同样的问题,启动后还是有2个“我的文档”窗口弹出,看来这就是卡巴斯基删除该木马的后遗症,需要用系统还原来弥补。好了,现在来个系统还原吧。

好拉,该消失的消失了,不过又要重新安装AutoCAD 2006,烦!不过,死不去已经很好啦:)

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