我的天

Brokeback Mountain红极一时，甚至让李安获得了奥斯卡，所以就有了兴趣去看看。和往常的大片感觉不同，那种情节的激荡起伏就像微微的波浪一样轻轻一股一股的不断袭来，你没有紧张得透不过气来随时担心谁突然会离开的感觉（恐怖片）或者那种让你心里感到愧疚，后悔自己所做的压抑后悔感（亲情片）。说真的，看了第一个碟子，我真的有点想睡了，当然这主要的原因是用BT下载的.rmvb压缩版的声音实在太小了，我把音量调到最大，还是若隐若现地听到那些人的对话，而那个字幕更始惨不忍睹，声音已经够小的了，字幕还要是对不准，所以从一开始我就质疑自己是不是真的学过英文，或者那里面说的是不是英文。好痛苦，我一定错过了好多好优美的音效。我以后是不会用BT下载电影了，质量太信不过了，版本很多，但广告就更多，特别是那些浮点的。要看高质量的电影还是用eMule比较好。eMule中绝大部分是.avi，字幕是外挂的，这就很好。要学英语就应该这样。否则看到那些不对时间轴的字幕真的会死人的！

说回Brokeback Mountain，开始不知道英文名字的时候不知道为什么有2个中文翻译名字《断背山》和《断臂山》 。但当我知道了英文以后我就更疑惑了，为什么会把它翻译为《断臂山》 ？brokeback和“断臂”可一点关系也没有。

然后我知道了这个影片该不会在中国上映了（看看highlight处）。

这个电影给了我最深的教育是原来有的牛仔的工作是放羊。在我一贯的意识里，牛仔就是那些单手骑在疯牛上的勇士，还有的就是最擅长玩弄手枪，老是骑在马上，靴子上有马刺，接着就是皮质的外套，牛仔裤，那个我不知道该怎么称呼的帽子，当然还有那些格子衬衫，那个不知道是不是用来装饰的小围巾，最后就是那些惊人的套索技巧，而且牛仔好像都是和沙漠和仙人掌有很多联系的。但经过这个电影，我似乎终于知道了他们的工作到底是做什么。其实就是牧人，不过和中国不同，他们不是在放自家的样，也不是放自己集体的羊，而是承包放羊。但为什么要牛仔到大山里放养而不在农场主的牧场养羊呢？在大山里随时有黑熊、狼之类的凶猛饥饿的动物在等待着牛仔和羊啊！但为什么还要在大山里放羊？而且那么多的羊，牛仔和牧羊犬怎么可以确保那些“咩”不走失？绵羊这东西特别容易长蛆（苍蝇的幼虫，喜欢寄居在潮湿温暖的地方，所以羊毛底下就是它们的天堂，以羊肉为食，羊因此就会发炎腐烂甚至死亡），那么长的时间都不加检查，如果真的长蛆怎么办？

大山里，人迹罕至的地方，两个毫无关系的年轻人共同生活。然后可以说有点儿相依为命，大山了除了我，就是你。动物有生理需要，年轻气盛的男儿就更不用说了。我觉得刚开始的时候是他们要满足自己的生理需要的自然力量大于他们心灵上爱的力量。如果那里有个女的出现，我有80%的信心肯定，他们不会有后来那种似乎被世俗不能理解的“同性恋”的关系。每天都朝夕相对，除了羊，就是个伙伴，那时人的心理应该是处于极端孤独的状态。而对方则刚刚在这个时候提供了帮助，无论是肉体上、生活上还是心理上。所以，我觉得是那个环境造就了如此的人与人之间的关系。因为那里只有2个血气方刚的男儿，如果那是两个老头，我觉得这种事情不会发生，如果那是一男一女，结果就只会是可能两人在大山里筑起了自己的天地。但偏偏，那是两个青年男性！

不知道“同性恋”的爱的定义到底是怎样的。但即使是我们最最能感受到的亲情和友情也是如此，但我觉得亲情和友情都不可能像那里两人分手后又走到了一起时候感情越来越深的状态。不知道爱情会不会，因为这个我没有发言权。

人的自然需求本来应该是阴性和阳性结合，连最最简单的微生物，比如说霉菌也是如此（尽管那些东西从外表上可能看不出是阴性和阳性）。为什么导致“同性恋”，社会上很长一个时间的解释是因为那人受到异性的伤害太大了，或者其他什么的刺激太大了，所以就产生了厌恶或者害怕之类想避而远之的心态。而同性人则给他们安全，尽管自然定律告诉他们，这样的结合不可能有“结果”，但心灵上所得到的已经可以让他们忽律物质上的“结果”。显然，很多的“同志”都是有分“阴性”和“阳性”的，尽管他们是同性。你见过同样刚烈或同样温柔的同性恋伴侣吗？如果是那样的，他们就不会被称呼为“同志”而是“好兄弟”或者“好姊妹”。这个电影我觉得在某种程度上解释了同性恋形成的原因，除了心理创伤的原因以外，原来生存环境也在冥冥中会造就这种好像有点违反人类法则的关系。

同性恋，不伤害任何人，为什么要受到谴责呢？

说真的，这个电影我看完以后的确有点一头冒水的感觉。因为里面有太多太多我不曾知道的东西，但最大的问题还是下载的影片质量太差了。终于看过了这个“大片”，感悟到了一点，学会了一些，这样，很好！

其实到现在为止我还是不明白为什么有人很讨厌自己的专业，觉得没有兴趣，我真的不知道为什么。因为我觉得我越扎得深我就越能发觉其中的乐趣，原来身边的一些“好习惯”那些“科学的生活方法”原来就是一些很简单的原理的叠加和简化。有种觉得自己学了那么多年终于有点“用武之地”的感觉。从知道要学习以来，我觉得我学习就是为了解决现实的问题。越实际越好，科学就是为了使生活更好。为了能更懒我们就创造了很多东西。因为要更舒服，我们发明了好多。没有目标去学习，为了考试而学习根本不是我的目标，我觉得那个永远是个压力，一个永远也转化不成动力的压力。

为着一个梦想去学，为着解决现实问题去学，我就能享受这学过程中的一切。当然，我不是科学家，我到此为止从来没有亲眼见过复杂的科学研究。一切认知新科学的过程都在电视节目上获取，那些东西都好神奇，不知道是不是那些节目的潜意识引导，反正我觉得自己也很想成为一分子加入其中。我并不介意一辈子在实验室中度过，我不介意一辈子在实验室里默默无闻，只要我知道自己在干什么，我的方向是正确的，是正义的，是有利于这个地球的，这就够了。所以，如果要我选择，我宁愿整天整夜都看那些科学节目，而对那些娱乐节目视而不见。真的，从小孩到现在，我从来都不怎么沉迷，小时候是父母的抑制让我无法沉迷，而大了以后则是发觉自己根本就没有那么个兴趣。哪个歌手出了什么新专辑，拿了多少的奖项我真的一点都没有兴趣，但为了圈子里面的一些交流，就算我没兴趣我也要那么知道一点，这是我第一次买CD的原因，也是现在偶尔被迫听中文歌的原因。只是为了交流，没有任何兴趣可言。

也许你会说我沉迷JEA，对，曾经有那么一段时间，我是用那个当我的精神动力，但现在不再了。就像他本来是一副吸引我眼球的名画，因为他，我知道了有这么一幅话，于是我就细细地看，在看的过程中，我看到了好多，好多关于一个属于地球令一边的一个世界，学着认识一种身边人从来不提起的语言，所以慢慢的我的注意力在转移，从一个人，到一个文化，一个与我们经常能在身边看不到的世界所不同的世界。所以，准确地来说，他应该算是我的一个导师。因为他，我才开始阅读外国文学，还是那些非传统经典的文学，那些文学更现实，更揭示生活，用的不是华丽的辞藻，朴实的语言，令你感到惊心动魄的画面，然后你觉得你突然看到了美好世界一些并不那么完美的一面。人要成熟，就首先要认识这个世界不是完美的，所以你需要尽你所能去改造，正确认识所遇到的困难是必然的。

今天的食品化学首先是由老师上节课布置了作业的同学上台讲述老师要他们去解决的问题。可以说，我觉得，他们说得不好。首先是还没有明白做PPT讲义的最基本的要求——简明、清晰。讲义不是要把你说的所有内容都搞上去，那上面应该只是最精华，最中心或者别人最不容易通过口述理解的东西，必要时应该用图片或动画来演示那些要费很多口水来说明白的问题，这样是为了给听讲解的人最直观的感觉。的确，在下面听你说的人都已经起码是个大学生了，又或者在做毕业答辩的是时候，听你说的是那些很专业的教授级人物，但这不代表你就可以把事情复杂化地表达。我觉得无论在说什么问题，无论是对什么人说，都应该用最简单的方式，最容易让人接受的手法。当然，今天的同学是第一次，是全班差不多100人的先驱者，他们的不完美是可以接受的，现在我们还是大二而已，我们还有机会改进。不知道老师会给他们这次的表现多少分，但如果要我打分的话，我打不出个高分。以为他们连一样最基本的东西都没有做得好，听完他们的讲述，我们对那个问题的解决还不大了解。这种感觉和我看电视那些科技节目的感觉很不一样，一个是令我感到冲动，一个是令我晕头转向。

专业真的那么难吗？难道就不能用一些轻松的方式来表述深奥的科学奥秘？我相信一定有那么一个解决方法的，其实，我觉得，学专业一点不闷。考试成绩到底代表什么？真正的成绩就是那区区的分数吗？自己有所得，感到快乐幸福，这个成绩还不够吗？自己为了自己的梦想想出办法解决问题，即使只是一些很很简单的问题，难道这个成绩不值得自己高兴那么好一阵子吗？

不后悔自己选择了如此一个专业，如果可以的话，我真的想在这个专业的大道上走那么一辈子，当后人的开荒牛，做一个探路者，即便我也许要拿着锄头步履艰难地摸索前进！

The final examination of this semester is lift and short drop. My partner and I must one play the short drop and the other lift it, again and again, until the teacher asks us to stop, and then change the role of both. All of this, including deep high service is just the basic skill of badminton. And just a moment before, I learn some profession words of badminton in English. You can learn it from here: http://asafin.vicp.net/asabc/dispbbs.asp?boardID=8&ID=16

If you want to be a good player of badminton, you must know how to take advantage your wrist. I think it’s important than other in badminton. And of course, the footwork is important too. Compared with tennis, you should move quickly, and the max speed of badminton now in the world is also high than tennis. When the ball drops on the course of tennis, you still have a little time to service return, but in the course of badminton, if the shuttle drop on your course, you have lose this point. You should be more dedicated, the little movement of opponent maybe meaningful.

And now, I found out a little that if you want to do a good job in badminton, but without any footwork skill, that must be a great problem. You can move to the place in time, in short, just the lost will wait for you. So you can see if someone really learns badminton professionally, he/she must pay a lot of time in footwork practice. In the eye of laical, I think the footwork of badminton just like the footwork of fence. And sometime I will think, I wasn’t gripping a bat but sword, but I didn’t hit others but the badminton was badly hurt. I don’t know fence at all, and I am not good at badminton as well. I am just an everyman, and I can find the happiness of take part in many kinds of sport, that’s enough. I have dreamed to be a professional player on the court, playground or other space of professional field.

Life and short drop, that’s my new target of this term!

We lost the tug of war in the third round, but all of us feel the power of love. We are willing to lose all our own. We are stronger, stronger than our shape. Now I know why we have power to confront so many difficulties in the past, that’s because we have the power of love. With strong mind, we could overcome all kinds of devil.

After reading the first paragraph, you must think I am talking about the air with no sense. However, the incident really unites us, and made me feel warm. I am really comfortable in this collectivity. At the very beginning of this year, I have made a vow to god that I could join in a team, and now my dream came true. I realize that I have been in that team for more than a year. The members are around me more than 4 days a week, and the team I wanted to join is Class Three of Food Science and Engineering 2004. The golden fruit is in my hand and I didn’t realize for more a year, just like a blind, a deaf, and a dumb.

The accident is here:

After losing the tug of war, all of us were used up, though we have pulled out all our energy in physics, and the strong faith with stick we up for a long time seemed disappeared suddenly.  The goddess of victory was no long at our side. I didn’t want to say anything, neither my classmates. We told us maybe that is a good way to release, tomorrow we wouldn’t need to think about the semifinal and maybe the final war any more. We could enjoy our P.E. class tomorrow afternoon, and do what we what to do at night.

Suddenly, one of my female classmates didn’t feel well. She was having a whirling sensation and a tendency to fall. The situation became severe second by second. Some of us knew the reason — she is carrying the plan of losing weight, so her meal is less than usual and the most important thing is she drank a yoghourt instead of eating a formal dining tonight. Low blood sugar is the biggest murder. At the very beginning, we thought we should let her have a great meal and the problem would be solved. But this time the devil was really there! Just after walking for a short way, she couldn’t move any longer. She should drink glucose at once! After a little chaos, I run out of the crowd and run out of the playground. I kept running down the brae, our canteen is just there. During this time, a thought strived on me, I must be quick, or a life must be in danger. I asked the seller in a loud voice that did you have anything with high sugar; my classmate is in low sugar. She was shock in while and skims the drinking again and again, and didn’t make any choice. In such situation, I run again, I know where have the glucose drinking — the dormitory supermarket. I rushed to the frozen sucker and picked out the glucose drinking then paid money in a short time. Thank goodness there are too many people at that time.

In the way back, I had seem a crowd was coming, that should be my classmates. We came closer and closer, I saw she was on the shoulder of one of my male classmate. And the others were just around them. We are very anxiety. Do you have feeling now? Do you feel better? I didn’t know what had happen. And then she started to drink the glucose, sitting at the side of road. I could see how anxiety of my classmates. After a while, she felt better, and our team moved to the dormitory hospital together. After she lay on the bed, we could take a breath, because at least now she was still OK. I heard the news when I left to buy the drink, she even lost her feeling, the girls was in a confusion, and then they called back the boys (after the tug of war, they had left). Somebody fell into faint!!! They shouted at the photo. And you can imagine what expression would on their face. They came back, and moved to hospital with a crowd.

I witnessed the beginning and the end. I feel I’m not alone. They really will help you in necessary. I’m sure of that. And that’s the power of love. And today is 03-08, Women’s Day, and the Girls Day in our university. I won’t forget 2006-03-08 forever; it must be one of the most important parts of my whole life.

Two of my professional classes’ teachers have talk about the subject that we can be a professional in any other subjects. That seems impossible and the road leads to that goal must be very hard, and be full of difficulty, however, if you persist to it, that does can become truth no matter what. I don’t know why both of them talked about this subject now, maybe they wanted to imply something that I can’t infer now.

You main subject is not the whole road of all you life. The future is still in your control, and of course even you are good at steering your wheel, maybe your car still will bounce up and down. If you are driving at the road which is suitable to your car, in this way, you may feel better, but you must know if you choose the best road to yours why not others do the same. They learned food as main course as well; maybe they will perform better than you and the other top ones in others subject also will join in your journey. How to be out standing one, that’s a great, question, or you can say how to be a person that can stand stably among them that is a deep knowledge. No matter in what roads, there must be full of competitors beyond you. You should understand if you don’t set your goal and then flow with the water, only the devil came to you again and again.

And what target you are eager to achieve? You should have the best answers. You can be a layer, a scientist, an engineer, a doctor, a tutor, a businessman, a police a designer, a worker…

My professional subject is food science, but I think I can have a job that doesn’t have any relationship with it. I am still in the colorful world. All the roads are open to be, and never be too late. The only important thing is that whether you like the road you select. Now you can still choose another road, and when you are thirties the entrances are still open, and even when you are fifties the same thing still, however, at that time, whether you still have energy to driving in other unfamiliar road? I am a severely undivided person, and I usually exert myself in something and can’t get out. I like my subject very much till now, and didn’t have any idea to leave, that’s because I like it, instead of being afraid of the completion in other subject, yet I know many people don’t think so, after some of university course they have found themselves were not belong to the main subject they learn. They have a good excuse to leave, if you know what you want I think it’s time for you’re to reach the peak of that hill and then pick the golden fruit. Before of changing you should know the hard of your new decision, the hidden difficulty still exist.

Turn around; it’s still not too late, if you really like it.