我的天

I should have a brand new start, my school should have too! Today is 200-03-02, a new start of March, hope the depress thing flow away and never come back. We live in a peaceful and fortunate place, we should feel love, at the same time learn to love others. Care the people beyond you; try your best to enjoy this colorful life. In other aspect, maybe the world is not so black, and you are not alone, share your feeling, and let’s other step in to your heart. I’m sure that must not so bad. We should learn to trust each other, and believe that they really can help us.

Hope the ones have gone will bless others; persuade them not to fall in the same hole as them. And I also hope the ones who want to follow the bad example that could think again and again. You still have a lot of beautiful dream that haven’t come true, how you can slip away?! If possible, I hope I can give you some courage, don’t give up, tomorrow is another day, and will be better!!!

This morning, I joined the group made by my old brother which call "call lao ye! " It must be heard a little strange; in fact it’s a dialect of Guangzhou. But the true meaning of it, that’s the question, I don’t know how to write it out. It’s a brand new start. I joined this ground, it would be stronger and better, and I think my brother and me in some way are very similar. At first, both of us are Sagittarius. I don’t so believe constellation, but in some style we are the same and that just accord with the character of Sagittarius. So even though I don’t believe, however, the accidental things consciously or unconsciously till happen.

In the second badminton, my teacher declared the way of final examination of this term. Those kinds of movement I don’t know how to describe in English formally, so I’d better not create some words now. Let me check it out and then tell you. It’s a brand new challenge for me and my partner. Just 6 weeks left, we should work hardly from now on.

Have you prepared well to envisage the brand new start?

I don’t know when the end is. This morning, another female postgraduate left our world. I can see, that must be a dark, cold silence morn, however, after that everyone in my school can’t be quintet again. She was the fourth of this semester. Why the evil came and never planned to leave? The professors, the associates and all the tutors here can’t keep calm anymore. University is a place where can educate a man not a place that is suitable to end one’s life! Let’s be moment silence. I’m not a bad heart people, I hope that kinds of thing won’t befell on as again, however, as everybody known that she was the first and was not the last as well. The suggestion of the death is so clear, even though a fool can smell it. Once we didn’t light a fire to get away the dark that has been discovering, there must be devil’s mystery hidden in it. I think just the scientific light can solve that problem; during this time we should have more courage to envisage reality. For a long time, we exert ourselves to flee from it, however, after so much, can we flee still? We can’t flow, we can’t flee, and we have to know how to face.

Depression is a great reason of death. This afternoon, my food microbiology teacher used about 25 minutes talking about the death, and its brother depression. He told us a story that when a person couldn’t walk out of the place where his/her was very familiar in evening, and he/she just could walk a round at that place. That means he/she must have some problems in his/her heart. In fact, the real barrier is not in the dark and can’t be the dark of night, but he/her loses the compass of his/her heart. In short, he/her couldn’t walk out the round in his/her heart. (Let’s talk about mind and heart. Heart emphasizes the emotion; on the other hand mind is most used to describe the logic thought.) His/Her maybe depress, so it’s time to do something.

We are not the God; we don’t have any capability to rob the people from the Death. We are green hands in front of HIV; we are also the green hand in front of suicide. The best way to stop it is to prevent any those thought grow in our mind. Prevention is better than cure, that’s because most of times we just can treat instead of cure, we can’t have confidence that we are surely overcome the enemy of any kind. As a human being, the entire thing we can do is do our utmost to treat it, not cure it.

Jump, jump, jump, hey! Our school is not for jumping from the top of any building. It’s a place which educates people instead of ending one’s life. Dead, Dead, Dead, dad, could you tell me that’s the end?

We had done a great job! We are the winner of the tug of war between 2005 Food 4 and ours (2004 Food 3). We are elder than them, we should win, and from the shape and size of us, we would win. In my opinion, we had no reason that we would fail in this war! At last, as a think, the Goddess of victory came to our side, however, which beyond my thought was that the real victory was more hardly than ideal.

Before the tug of war, I thought we would be sure win, yet it’s far from so easy. Maybe, no only me but some of my classmates thought the opponent was small potato that we could win without any hard working, so we didn’t pay all our attention at the first round. The first round beyond my thought, we had a standoff with our opponent. We would have three rounds match, which team wins two of them and that’s the winner. If two team didn’t have win or fail in 30 seconds, that means deadlock. A standoff will be judged.

We had better players, we should have more confident, why we would miss the first round, the Goddess came and went, and in some time, she even wanted to help our opponent, however, we reseized the initiative, and won at the second and the third rounds. We now had promoted in the next round, the opponent in future must be stronger. Hope we can be strong when we meet the stronger opponent, and win the champion at last :) Could you imagine when we win after two rounds how happy we were? We all handed up, shouting and cheering, just like the champion crown had on our head. That’s the power of us, the power of our comity. We had done a great job! Who had helping us? No one except ourselves! I can feel the glory that I am part of this collective. They can cheer me up, when you are down; they can share my happiness because I am one of them. Thank you very much; you give me strong hug in such damp cold raining day. With you, we all can confront any difficulty. Thank you a million!

And today 02-28 also a special day in my calendar — the birthday of JEA (exactly, 02-28 is not his birthday, he was born on 1968-02-29. It’s a leap year, and he was born on the leap day. So when he was born, all the people had to celebrate his birthday on 02-28, except the leap year I think. What a poor guy! How could he born on 02-29! What a lucky guy! Many fans including me celebrate such important day for him every year. ) And this is the forum of his birthday: FELIZ CUMPLEAÑOS JORGE ENRIQUE, as part of fans, how can I did nothing, so I had participated, if you are his fans too, you should also show something now, vamos!

So today really a very special day! We won the tug of war, and JEA won the heart of his fans :))))

It drizzled off and on all day. Before now, I don’t know there is such a word to describe a fine, gentle, misty rain. It seems never any in a short time. Though I don’t think it’s good for me, yet I have to face the reality that spring has come, and the good friend of her rain also has come together. Raining, raining, raining, whenever looking the sky, it’s raining, like the fog; you miss the blue sky and the warming shining. Moisture is just around you; even embrace you firmly, no matter you like or not. I hate such weather, however, the life tells me, its part of them, without hatred, the true love won’t come out, and the happiness won’t be deep and memorable.

Today, a bad news came with the misty rain. Another young lady left the spring of 2006 and preferred to go to the dark cold hell alone. She is a postgraduate, not everyone can be postgraduate. In my opinion, she is very bright and lucky. Just like the la niña (el niño: it’s Spanish means the son of the God, in Chinese it means 厄尔尼诺. I changed it a little I think the meaning of  la niña should be the daughter of the God). A bad example，to us and for our school. Are the students of SCAU fragile and so easy to collapse? What did the deaths want to prove? You are not the glass, and even though you are the glass you must be the toughened glass! Just because did get a good mark at the Official Entrance Examination, you selected such road that couldn’t come back again. Who you were! What did you want! You know there won’t be plane road all the life, why not went to die when you know you couldn’t went to Tsinghua University but SCAU. Became a part of official was your dream? That was the only thing you wanted to do in this world? How silly you were! The poor work hard everyday to keep alive, even though they would pay out their labor force to live in this world. You were also the human beings why you waste your life. In short, I think they all didn’t have a right philosophy, they have lots of knowledge more than the beggar, why they should opt a way that even though a fool won’t choose? What made them so silly?

They came and went, disappeared in the misty rain. Should we forget such person? Why they would do so?

已经拖了2天的4级单词Word List没有看，加上今天的就已经积累了3个Word List，再积累下去，我就死定了。谁叫眼睛突然来个这么奇怪突然的病。但幸好，今天已经好多了。还记得昨天晚上对着镜子看的时候清晰看到眼睑那里有个小黄点，大小和样子就和那些暗疮那样，生在那个地方，挤压着眼球舒服才怪。眼睛最舒服的状态是向下看或者把下眼睑拉下，我也不明白为什么那个动作最舒服，可能那样眼球就不受上眼睑那个东西的压迫。好消息是今天起来那个东西已经明显小了，压迫没有那么剧烈，自然就舒服了。

昨晚和一个Betty的粉丝聊了好久。她Q上的名字是蓝色海岸线，但到底该如何称呼就不大清楚了，Q上的昵称五花八门这是显而易见的。她也有个blog，在sina，名字叫做在晴朗天空飞，有个很奇怪的感觉就是这个女孩（比我大，应该说是姐姐吧）骂人真的好厉害，特别是对那个痛恨到极点的老板。几乎要向她老板实施满清十大酷刑的样子。当然，说说没有什么关系，发泄而已。只要那个老板不自认是她的老板就好了。她也给了张她画的JEA给我看：

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专业搞艺术的和我这些小白从根本上就是不一样：）其实应该把这个照片发到外国的论坛秀秀，证明中国的粉丝之中也有如此厉害的人物！毕竟我们是中国人，可以说是现在世界上发展得最快的国家，毋庸置疑的大国。

当你一直被一些东西烦恼着，一旦有那么一点的减轻你会觉得很解脱，突然有了动力。于是就靠着这么一点不知道怎么来的动力，我动了起来。开始做那本16开260页的《全国计算机考试二级教程——C语言程序设计》，以为自己对于C语言前面的部分应该还可以，但做起来才发现我还有很多缺漏，不堵住这些缺口，真的会害死人。还清楚记得龙哥（高中数学老师——黄传龙）说过“不要希望你不懂的东西考试就不会考”，考试就是考一些很那个的东西，就是要考死你，不考死你，那就不叫考试，那些出题的人就不会高兴，不会安心。所以，备考是一个不断发掘自己错误的过程。2005年4月的全国计算机考试二级C语言的笔试选择题第六题问软件测试的目的是什么，你知道答案是什么吗？——软件测试的目的是尽可能多地发现程序中的错误。非常完美的答案，我们的生活又何尝不是如此。你不去发掘就根本不知道你有多少的不足。所以我有了这样一个下定义的念头“哪一天你觉得自己完美无缺了，那是因为你丢掉了发掘自己不足的工具了。”