我的天

It’s 06-01 again, however, I’m no longger a little child. Though it’ s Children’s Day, yet it doesn’t belong to me. I’m a student in university now, why I’m still so childish? Meanwhile, the classmates around me also pay attention to this holiday, just as my situation, they can’t forget this important day in their pass.

We are no longger suitable to this holiday, but our hearts tell us we still very young, we’ll teh little child to our parents forever. I can ‘t believe, I’m 20 years old now (in fact, it still has to wait about 6 months). I have missed my Children’s Day for about 7 years. Since I came to middle school, this day hadn’t belonged to me, it’s just a normal working day. No congratulations, no gift, no surprise, everything passed as they used to be, however, we still believe, it’s ours. In fact, have a heart which is full of childish, isn’t it a good thing?

The day in last year, maybe I was at home. There’s still 6 days, I would have the university entrance examination. I have forgotten how anxious I was at that time. It’s less than a week, just in6 days, I would meet the important challenge in my life. The study of 12 years, now I had a final result. It’s a golden fruit, or just a poor history? No one knew at that time. All the things had be fixed now. However, the enthusiasm stand still. Now, I almost feel I’m the xrspook one year ago, but as time goes by, I lose my ability of answering the test paper, and the good friends at that time are far from me. They don’t comprehand, we had seperated her and there.

No matter what I though, I’m no longger the student who has to face teh hell test in Senior Three. I’m just a passerby, a year ago, I went through it, now it’s their turns. I can’t step into the same river twice.

Maybe, I have to know how to flow as. I can’t live in the history, I can’t dream all the time, because the more exciting future is waiting for me to design.

Even the greatest personality will make some wrong dicisions. As a result, failure is very common to everybody. The lucky Godness won't always comes with you.

I failure a bad thing or good thing? Many people have plenty of different opinions about it. Some of them will think that failure really hurt them, comsequantly, they will fall down and never stand up again at that point. Of course, these person won't think failure is a good thing. On the other hand, the optimistic person will always believe, the failure is just a reward, however, the most important thing is the process. He had enjoyed the process, that's enough. Or they will have a excuse to themselves that the failure is the mother of success.

In my opinion, we should know how to face failure in a right angle. First of all, we should find out the reason of our failure, and then do some anglytical research get some experience. This realistic thing can make sure that we won't fail at the same point next time. Meanwhile, most of time, we can't be so calm and do this scientific thing. We can't omit the negative feeling naturally. So at that time, we should learn how to recover ourselves. Though someone will laugh at us that we are just cheating ourselves, yet who will still look you down when you are sucessful next time. If you can control you emotion very well, you must be a strong person.

In a word, I personally think, failure can be a bad thing or good thing, and the final decision is made by yourself. "A man can be destroyed but can't be defeatd." With strong ambition, the failure can break it down? So, failure couldn't be a bad thing to a optimistical man.

The Road of Growing Up, the play of our whole  class in English rale play calsses, now it has gone to the end.The last common of it is made by teacher that we made a miracle, because we put 16 person in 10 minutes’ role play. (including me, the aside) How we can do it? I don’t think we made a miracle, maybe at teacher’s side, it is really a very suprised thing.

She asked us that all our class must participate in he play, and we did it. At least, the quatitiy of the player is a miracle. She has never thought there would be such a class and had such a play. In fact, at the very beginning, I had never imagine we could do it. All the people seemed pay no attention to it, just like none of their business. In my opinion, I felt very alone, I just worried by myself. Every evening, I had nightmare because of it, who can understand me? Who can share the worry of me.

Until the mid-night of last Thursday (maybe we should say Friday morning), I found a associate, I found a person had the same dream as me, we all hoped we had a good ending. Have the same target, and go to great lengths to do it is really great. I found someone to shared my pressure, or in another word, she found me to share the same thing.

Until this after noon, I didn’t realized the enthusiasm hiding in my classmates. I felt it, they also had the same dream as me. I had been down in some times, however, after that, I felt their strong enthusiasm. As the back control  of the play, I had more power, and more pressure. I was really afraid that I pulled my leg out, and then lose their faces. If it’s just my private presentation, I just need to stand the scold by my own heart. But if unconsciously, I failed this time, I would lose their faces.

Now, all the things had become an beautiful, unforgettable and miracle history. I know I must believe them, I must trust them, I can lean on them. The play is ending, however, the road of living here together is still comging to us.

昨天晚上，总日志数量已经达到498，但怎么冥思苦想都再也挖掘不出什么来了，随便吧，我不管了，当灵感来的时候他自然会来，但他不来的时候，我干着急也没办法。

昨天晚上看了一晚的eMule，一点反应都没有，从我开机到关机，上传量为0，下载量也为0，我的下载列表足足有差不多10个文件，一点动静也没有。你看到那些种的数量，除了一个是1以外其余全部是0，你除了郁闷还能是什么。似乎有点对它死心的样子。

早上起来看了：斌斌 De 有声 Blog和地下铁咖啡，sweetbriar终于回来了，她终于又开始写自己的日记。而斌斌还是那个样子，还是十分喜欢看他的照片，他的生活，特别他说到他外婆去世之前的说的那句“俺斌斌……”我的感情之珠又在眼眶里打转转了。

终于把：
Isaac Mao(毛向辉)
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加入了自己的收藏夹，有空的时候还是要看看这些专业人士的东西，有助自己的提高，虽然是green hand，但也不能做不思上进的小白啊！

也把rainfall加入了收藏，她/他也喜欢和我一样用“烂日记”来分类。也算是个志同道合的人吧。

今天，突然找到了自己初中的两篇作文，都是自己觉得有价值的，于是就打了出来，于是日志数目就一下子超越了500。它们分别是：自负的日记 :: 我的天和减负不减难，学生怎么办？！ :: 我的天

觉得自己挺小孩子气的，干嘛要那么注意日志的数量，就像那些注重评论数和点击量的人那样，都是不可理喻的，还曾经立下誓言，一定要在我的blog成立一周年之前把日志超越500，现在提前实现了，应该庆祝一下！！！！！所以今天的烂日记就提前写了，马上就要离开去上学。不写了，走人了。

不过最后还是要庆祝一下，超越500篇，万岁！万岁！！！

这是第501篇日志，第356篇烂日记，离一周年06-09还有9天。

极端的兴奋，这是初中的时候义气一发而写的文章，曾经copy多份去投稿，但当然是“石沉大海”……：p不过本人还是很喜欢它，它是我的心血所在。用了好多心去写它，它不被人重视，我也没有办法，现在我就要把它放在这里发表。这就是我曾经做的，我为它而骄傲！当时所有都是手抄，没有电子版，今天能把它找到，真的很好运气。

减负不减难，学生怎么办？！

现在社会到处都在讲着一个问题“减负”。而减负的其中一个内容就是减轻学生的学习负担。几乎每天的报纸都有不少篇幅在讲述这一问题，看来这次社会上的大多人都对这减负挺关心，还蛮同意。但我觉得这一减也减得太不合理了，一些该减的人没有减，一些不用减的人却大大的减了。

总的来说，我不太同意减负。因为只要细心想想就可以发现，肩负只能应付一时的问题，时间久了问题又会出现。这正如修堤坝，也只能阻挡一时的洪水，要真正解决洪水的问题就要疏通河道和减少水土流失，这样才是长久的办法。因此我也希望社会群众和教委的同志们细心想想这个关系到千万学生的问题——减负。

写于1999年，初中二年级

同样现在看起来，当时的文章还是稚嫩，对于这些言论的文章，原来自己不是很在行，自己还是在写感情的东西厉害一点。不过当年是抱着一腔热情而写的，这就是年轻的不死活力了：）