我的天

上个星期的日记终于在学校搞定了，虽然质量不高，但仍算完成了任务，昨天又上了3个小时，我的钱在疼啊！还有冬天每月3吨水3度电，简直不如叫我们睡天桥底，几天就搞定的分量，我们的住宿费真“贵”啊！

一觉醒来没水没电，芷园的早餐清一色是华农校本区那边应急送过来的面包。一字排开，好大的气势啊！中午吃饭的时候终于一睹“专家们”的部分芳容。一字的车队，前后各有一辆摩托警车，前头还有一辆闪着灯的警车带头，车队真的排开一条直线。张望里面的专家也几乎是清一色的黑色西装白色衬衣加领带。开车的都戴着“黑超”。这算什么本科教育评估，简直就是国家重要人物到访，那种气势太太夸张了。

真的很喜欢机械制图的老师，很有亲切感，每一句“以后你们到了工作单位……”，在别人的心里也许是废话，但对我来说，使我一次次地对未来产生幻想。自从小云那天的叙述，我再也不觉得自己可怜，经过大图的作业，作业本里的几题，我简直觉得是赏赐。作业又做了3个多小时，但我再也不抱怨了，一点付出，一点收获，今天的辛苦，他朝的甜蜜，总会有回报的。

真不明白为什么SCAU的男生可以这般没风度，应该说没有规矩，可以光明正大地插队。昨天吃面的时候居然插了5个以上，但他们没有半点不好意思。今天晚上吃饭的时候又是如此，有娘生，没爹教，太没道德了！

刚接到妈的电话，又在对我说eMule的错误报告。然后外加一个坏消息——四姑婆中风入院了。又是中风，又是四姑婆，中风对老人来说实在太恐怖了。我没有听说过一个老人中风后可以没事的。她，90多了，无论如何也差不多了，但我不甘心，为什么是她？因为，到此为止，她都没享过什么福，无论是金钱还是儿女（她没儿没女，没结婚）一生都在为别人，为生活而奔波。为什么是她？没有亲人，一个人留在香港，开始是为了为内地的人挣钱，但老了以后，我都不会说了。

她最厉害是她的脑袋，思维尤其厉害。但，脑里爆了一条血管，不可动手术（太老了），这与等死有什么区别。再过十多天就2005了，再过一个多月就新年了，再过几年她就可以活一个世纪了，为什么？为什么？为什么你现在就倒下？听到这消息我的第一感觉是沉重而非因妈要到香港的麻烦，能见一面就一面，我恨不得马上可以过去，面对亲情，我的感情总是表面冷漠而内里激烈的。

我再也没心情干别的了，沉重占据了我的全部。

昨天的“广附”聚会令我意识到我是多么的幸福的！小云的土木工程制图，和她的模型作业，茵的植物学，这些简直是地狱。不单是作业还有做作业的原料和工具，都是吓死人的。108元的进口笔，还有配套的20多块钱一小杯的墨水，还有8块钱一张的专业卡纸，当然还有无穷无尽的乳胶，N mol的心机，通宵的痛苦，还有房间在做完模型后的恐怖，最不可想象的是以后买mic电脑的绝大花消，老师说他们的专业要买600多块的U盘，是U盘！还有因为教材都很贵，因为是全彩印的，所以叫他们买好的数码相机，是连一点点都照得清清楚楚的数码相机，所以他们的老师叫他们首先读这个专业要准备的是“钱”！简直是个百分百的“吃钱专业”！！！幸好我的专业没这么变态，幸好我的作业还不用通宵完成，幸好，幸好。与经管专业的相比，我的专业是地狱，但同其它工科专业相比，我的专业是天堂，没办法比较的天堂！

一觉醒来，发觉有是好天气，真的想回家。在床上拖到早上9：00才起床，然后吃早餐和看《中国地理杂志》 ，突然有种欲望想看风景图片，最想看的当然是国家地理杂志，当然是不可能的，但看看别的也解解闷。

然后去了打网球，一个人去练习，因为室友都还没起床，她们也有一大堆作业，也不爱体育，为了考试而学，无论是体育还是其它科目，被动啊！因为A2和A3之间有很多人打羽毛球只好到A3和A4之间打。打了大概1个小时，然后发觉有人要在那里搞卫生，只好转移阵地。又回到了A2和A3之间。终于没人了，但打了大概10分钟，一帮踢足球的男生又来了，然后斯文地“踩场”然后我也差不多了就“走人”。

上到宿舍，发觉她们还是那样，没打算去吃饭，于是又是一个人去了“芷园”。接着就来了网吧。又差不多2.5小时了，日记差不多，要去的也差不多了。没有了要赶着完成的事，星期天好象宽松了好多。

别的学院今天又溜走了一大批，dingding的整个宿舍干脆去流行前线，我就在这里郁闷，“唐老鸭”的“去了你就不要回来”真可恶！偏偏我又是个胆小鬼，哎！！！

要走人了，我的钱又在心痛。

Every weekend, I must go home, and this time, because of the judgement, I have to change. I have no choice but this. Without computer, the day is terrible, without JEA, the weekend is dump. The sentense blow is the thouhgt in the past, the real of my day told me the true.

The day began in an unwilling get up. The Red Cross traning again, this was the last time this term. The Dr. Luo again, I hated him. He did not like human doctor,but an animal doctor. He’s not professal in his works and movement. Time went by, the classes were over at last.

I ate the dinner with my old classmate. We talked a lot, from the new things and the remembrance. From difference college, we met a lot in different way. The classes, the person, the custom and the life, all of these were so different. I had too many classes, but she had too less classes. I hoped I had her life, and she liked my meanful life. The things we can’t get is alway the best one. And then she came to my room, we just could talk in a low voice, I shared the tapes with her, and then gave the essay written by JEA to her, she was the first person appreaciated his article autoly, maybe that’s because the way I asked other to read was a little forcing. “The Brief of the War” is great, there’s no double of it, it’s the only essay I was dellply move by JEA. The other articles, I can’t get their meaning clearly.

The afternoon, I had a physical labour- washed the sixth floor corridor. We used the fight fire water. I had never imagin that thing was so difficult. The head of the tube was so heavy. In the past, the firefighter was a very heroic job to me, and I even wanted to become one of them, but in fact, terrible. And I know now why the firefight must the big mucsle one and they won’t carry the tube to pull out the fire by oneself, too heavy, the unimagine heavy, if he do that, he can’t move , and never can pull out the fire. The action of using the tuble was very good, but the pay of doing this also so big. I nearly can’t move after that. When I went pass the basketball playgroud, a ball came to me, I wanted to throw it back, I was planned to give them a big show, to my surprise, I just threw the ball in a shor distant. Was she xrspook? Where was her power? I fell into a terrible situation. I lost the thing I always had.

The dinner in the new canteen was also perfect. For a long time, I haven’t enjoyed the meal. Everyday I just put the food into my mouth and didn’t care what its taste. Because of the judgement, all the thing became better and better. At the same time, I was afraid the extreme change in future.

The Saturday was not so bad, that’s the conclution of the experience.     

Tomorrow, the teaching judge group will come to SCAU to start its 7 days judgement. The school has prepared for 5 years fo this judge ment. But you know, the unthinkable thing is SCAU had 5 times o fsuch judgement before, and all of these, it had the same resule -fail. I know I don’t have a good heart to say it will fail again, but that’s the truth.

SCAU just did a lot fo contribution currently. All the actions show to us means its “临急抱佛脚”. All the words about it had done its best to prepare for 5 years is a great lie. No one will believe evern the most foolish one. 它的行为是正宗的“跌左落地拿番zha砂”。As I am a part of it, I can’t feel any proud. And many of us believe the true is that SCAU will became its old face-bumpkin, after this judgement. The changes just a built-up scenery, a part of the judgement show.

Tomorrow, the judgers will come, and maybe a great chance for us to complain, if they can’t find out the true. It’s time for SCAU to get its result of what it has done. Good or bad? I don’t know, I have no ability to judge, but if I must say, there’s no double of that it must be …

Yesterday, the tennis teacher did a very funny example to us. He pretended some students’ movement. He stood up highest as possible as he can, and then moved in some litte step, at the same time he said to us, the movement just liked the swan in ballet. So perfect, not only the movement and his face, and it really was some people’s movement when they were practising. How can he played the part so real!从动作到语言到表达都把整个错误动作表现出来，真的厉害！以他的搞笑能力和动作语言表达能力，中国一大批的专业演员要下岗了。

今天依然不可回家，包括明天，后天，我为电脑狂。也许明天或后天我又要去网吧打日记了，看我的感觉吧。想不到中国真的有人用eMule下载Yo soy Betty, la Fea， 在danzhu的留言本还在的时候没有人说出来，如今，终于主动发邮件给我了“连连”，一个熟悉又陌生的名字，除了dl125, danzhu和考拉，就没有其他的中国fans与我用邮件沟通了，她（他）是第4个。

明天的日子不知会怎样，好？坏？天知道！

The experience of yesterday in computer bar was so unforgetable. The first trying, the new feel, a special road in my life. Yet because of limit of time, I said nothing in yesterday’s daily. I didn’t know what I had written,some mix feeling, or you can say I coudn’t use words to express myself. The lesson I learned from yesterday was that I was very slowly typing Chinese caracters, but very fast in typing letters of alphalet. So till now, in a week, I will write all my daily in English. Saving my time is saving my money!

The mirale happened! I didn’t feel trired and wanted to sleep in today’s Inorganic and Analytical Chemistry classess. I could focus myself entitely. In this way, I not only could know what the teacher said and also could figure out where she was not perfect, and she had some place must be improved. Maybe the good emotion reeally can  lead a good day and let people enjoy everything in whole day.

The most excited thing was the English classes. We could watch a film today instead of boring lesson. I llked forward to that. And at the same time, the teacher would check our homework, I wasn’t worry at all, for a long time I had done a good prepare. And I almost had a litte hope that she checked the homework. The film we watched today was "Antz". It made by "dreamwork" and was a carton film. I knew it before, but never saw it. It’s talking about an ant called "Z", his story was great, from low place worker ant became a hero ant. From his name "Z", you could  see how no use he was. He didn’t  have strong power, evern didn’t have any special chance leaded to higher place, but he did. Because of an very occasinal chance, he met the princess ant, he loved her at first sight, and the power of love let him had a heroic deeds. In Chinese its "小流氓变叱咤红人". A poor guy became powerful, it always the main idea of American movie. And it’s so funny, let us burst into laugh for many times.

The tennis classes in the afternoon were not was my imagination. Because I had passed last time, so I didn’t need to have test again. So in my room. three of us had passed , but the last one still couldn’t success this time. When she beat the ball, the head of her pat was too low, the teacher said she was sweeping, and even didn’t give he chance to have the test. Poor her!

Nothing is excited today, and now I remembered a depress thing of computer bar, I can’t type spanish! How can they do that! It’s right to write spanish, the computer bar in SCAU also a Bumpkin too!!!