我的天

其实我也不是什么时候都很暴力，我其实也有温柔的时候，比如说我上“红十字会”的培训课的时候。

如果你问我为什么要加入红会，从表面上说，是因为只要红会最终的考试合格就有2个任选学分。对于大一的新生，学分就是命根。更重要的就是我本来就很想学这么一门技能。因为小时侯老摔交（现在不会了），于是就有一种自己学的医疗方法，免得别人把我弄疼。别看我这般模样，其实我怕痛死了。还记得小学的一次严重摔交，就因为处理不得当使得我差不多用了一个月才痊愈，看着伤口在发炎，在流出黄色的液体，我还得自我安慰，那是好的迹象。结果新买回来的双氧水一碰，冒出来的泡泡比火山喷出来的东东还要多，恐怖啊！如果当初处理的好，就不会出现如此恐怖的现象。

然后就是羡慕电视的医疗故事，比如ER，我真的爱死了，还有香港版的《妙手仁心》，那种专业的感觉，我真的很想拥有。记得看过不知什么电视，说如果考核完后有个什么证就可以在正规医院当临工，虽然只是在别人急救的时候打下手，但如能真的身临其境，真帅死了！在这方面我有个天生的优点就是不怕血（因为自己流多了），其次对难看的事物一点都不觉得恶心，比如说呕吐物，又或者死尸之类的，反而觉得很兴奋。

今天是第一堂培训课，学的只是皮毛中的皮毛。什么止血法和一些包扎方法。拿着真正的器材搞来搞去，虽然弄得不好看，有手忙脚乱的嫌疑，但真的很好玩。今天不能完美，就意味着我明天就有进步的机会。现在这些东西看上去好象没用，但人生漫漫，说不定哪一天，它们回派上用场。

下午又去逛超市今天是和，两家都比

便宜，特别是家乐福，如果它特价，没有一家是比它更便宜的，它为什么能这么神呢？

刚刚在电脑上完成了我的设计，原来自己的PHOTOSHOP是这么的“水”，除了第三幅有用PHOTOSHOP以外，其余两幅都只是用windows自配的画图完成。你可以说“杀鸡焉用牛刀”吧。但实际上我是无从下手，当年的学习白费了。我可是超级健忘。别看图片超级简单，做起来也要费工夫啊！！！
    
无论如何，以上3个都是我吐血之作，I won’t forget forever.

原来自己也有温柔的静的一面，其实我的LOGO也不是太差喈！

When I read the lesson "How to Make a Good Impression", I know I have many places to change. To change my action, change my attitude, change my way of speak… All the things I must change, if I want to be a succeeful man. The behavious of mine are so terrible, it means I am not polite, though I am a girl, but it seems I am just a rule man.

The biggest thing I must change is my self-centre thought. It is not exit when I was young, but as I am grown up, the lonely day became more and more, and I didn't communicate with many people. I often stay in a place, keep silence, watch others but having no words to say. Too many time of solitude made my self-centre, because at that time, I didn't need to think about others. The only thing I care is myself.

I say "I" to often! Or you can say I think about myself too often . I often just focus on my own problems. Others' things are none of m business. I complain frequentlky, because of a tiny problem I will complain all day. Because of a cloudy day, because of some meetings, because of money problem, because I don't know how to finish my homework, because… Everday, everytime, everywhere I will complain, no matter who I complain to. Maybe I just moan in a little voice, more often I yell to others. My emotion is so strange, it not only drives myself crazy but also dirives others mad. In fact, I just take serious and I am no good at showing my feeling, so I express my feeling in a volient way, but the poor thing is only my good friends know this. I can control in my heart, but I can't control my actions either, that's my problem.

This horrible habit formed when I was in middle school, because of an unforgetable basketball match. In that match my class lost, but we couldn't stand the fact, we cried and started my first complain. From then on, my complains are just like the water in Changjiang River, can't stop, and became more and more frequently.

I have two pole of my emotion: silence and complain. I think I can change this situation, but I won't. The environment stay still, how cna I change myself?

The social won't let my naughty, and I don't want to be the strangest one. The own style of life is good, but if it's too many, it means naughty or cant't be liked. Hope I can change, it's the right time for me to change.