我的天

Computer is my life, and the internet is tis eyes. From that window the world become in front of me, though in fact I won’t touch them maybe all my life.

This weekend, I had sent two email to two people I don’t know. One is a fan of Anita, no te rajes, she wanted to get the song of Sólo Tu Amo; and the other is the webmaster of Dr. Software. He’s the auther of Hacha. What a great software! And the auther of it is much greater! I don’t know whether they will reply, but I know if I don’t write to them, 100% there won’t be reply to me, no one know my situation, the problem of me and she.  

At last, till now, the master of Dr. Software have write two letter to me to answer my question in detail. I had never imagined that he would answer me so patient and so quickly. Still remember the last sentence in the first letter, he said "pd.  maybe you can help me to translate the program to chinesse and put your name in the credits as a translator…" I even don’t know C language, and don’t know how the Hacha make of. However, his words couraged me, I must do my best, and if one day I can really translate it… The software is less than 100KB, but it can cut or connect all sizes file!!! All size!!!

So this morning(1:00-4:00AM) lost myself in my website contribution. Just the category of CSS, it cost me about 3 hours. Maybe it’s just an easy job for the professor, yet I’m just a "white"(don’t know everything). The words are easy, the commands are easy too, but you didn’t know what’s it, how to use and where to use. I must try every commands, the blog’s operation are complicated than before. If I change the command I must submit it at first and then publish my website, so at last I can see the change. Maybe I had publish my website over 20 times. It doesn’t matter, if it become more beautiful, I deserved it.

不过气人当然是狂不顺心，首先就从数学说起吧。

高数马上该做完了，应该是简直得庆祝的事，但做到做后一题就是只是解一个三元一次方程就搞定了，根本不用思考，可以说是简单到不能再简单了。但我就是算不了，老是解到x=1, y=1/2, z=3/2, 而答案是x=1, y=-1, z=3，我怎么验算都发现自己没有问题，但题目的答案也同样没有问题，三元一次方程是绝对不可能有2个解的，况且是这么普通完美的3个三元方程。

于是逼于无奈找妈算，她算了几乎半小时终于算出来了，她几乎把3x=3，x=?都忘记了。然后最终出来的答案与答案一样。但我对自己的计算绝对有信心。于是就当着她面验算，她什么都似乎已经忘记了，我不得不声嘶力竭地解释我的观点然后纠正她的“问题”，当我验算到第二条式子的时候她坚决逃开了。

于是马上转向爸，岂有此理，他看都没有看我的题目就说不会，我气疯了！！！！！！！！！！！他绝对不会不会，是一个文科的大学生，是经过高考的，连这些简单到不能再简单的初中题目也不会？？？？？？？他根本就是在肤浅我，根本就不想我到底想干什么！！！！！！！他继续抄他的字典，真的很想马上把他的字典从6楼扔到楼下！！！！！！！但我还是停止了我这个行为。知识把草稿纸向着他的字典fling，然后发脾气大叫大骂几声。他怎么可以这样肤浅我！！！！！！就只会抄字典，我怎么会有这样的爸！！！！！！！！

生气没有用，深呼吸几口气然后继续在桌子前面坐了下来。在比较冷静的情况下再次对照作业本上的式子和书本上的式子。天啊！终于发现问题了！！！！原来第一个三元式的一个“+”我写成了“-”，我的计算没有错，书本上的计算也没有错，错的就是我抄错了题目。

现在喉咙也在痛，跟妈对叫真的不是“省油的灯”，简直就在毁灭自己的喉咙。实在不想再跟她“纠缠”下去了，为什么她说话可以那么大声，仿佛每一个问句都是喊出来的，实在不想再用同样的声量对抗。我们的JEA在拍Armando的时候老是要叫，真的很惨啊！！！！！！！！

然后第二个气人的就是C语言。用Dev-C+ + version4.9.9.0来试C语言，根本就不知为什么无法在MS-DOS下看效果，无论是第一次在Window ME还是刚才在Window 98第二版，无奈啊！开始的时候很高兴在打源代码的时候它自己居然会把格式搞出来，直到编译都没有问题，但是一按运行就看到MS-DOS窗口弹出来然后就马上消失，简直不知道发生什么，根本就无法看效果。在两台机子两个操作系统的效果都是如此。

于是以为是书上的一个编程有点问题，但试了三个都是如此。如果是要效果显示一句话的，就只能看到MS-DOS弹出来然后就自动在0.5秒钟之内消失了。如果是要计算2个数的和的程序，打完2个数然后一按回车，窗口又马上消失，不按回车看不到相加的结果啊！但一按，又消失了。简直就无法理喻，无可奈何。唯一能做到的就是软件编译自动检查我的书写误差，其余的效果，无法知道。

气死人了，就差一点点，但就是无法看到。

"Sorry mine", I don't want to tell just a funny story, but how regret I am now, after knowing the score of English last term.

My examination score was 81, and the usual score was 100, so the average score was 87. I couldn't imagine I would get 100 in usual, and everybody didn't have such unthinkable score. The most terrible thing is this happened at nobody but me. Maybe I am very silly, I just can think the reason was that the teacher wanted me to be better, and that's the only thing she can do. If it's true, I'm sorry, I'm very sorry that she must did it for me.

Though my express in class maybe better than others, or you cna say maybe sharper than others, yet did I deserve to that perfect score??? I do my best when do everything, from debate to my homework, but I don't think I was better than others. I'm also a normal person just as others, but why, why I can get that but others can't? Am I really so good in usual? Because of the presentation in the debate? Because of the weekly essays I wrote? I had do my best last term, that's no double of it, but what about others? They maybe did their best too!

I know the teacher gave me such score must put herself into a very embarrass situation. How can she explain this score to other? Did the student really very perfect??? What's the special ability the student have? And why you dare to give her such score?…I know, I know how difficult it will be to her! For me, she surffer so much, was she worth?

Sorry mine, I had such score in the exam, but that's all my real level, I just cna do that. Because I pay no attention in garmmer, I just can show my feeling in an very informal way, that's why I look so good at presentaion but just can get such score in examinaion.

I know, sorry means nothing, sorry can do nothing. The thing has passed , tomorrow is my hope. Pay too much attention at the past just waste of time, but I really feel very guilty, yet I swear I won't let my teacher in such situation once again. I must be bright just like the sun, have light from inside.

If the same exam result happens again, just let it go, I deserve it. You had pay so much patient to me, I won't let you disappoint anymore, if I can.