我的天

Thank goodness, the presentation was over. The huge pressure moved away at once. Since I got up, I didn’t know where I was. I repeated my words which I would say in presentation again and again unconsiously. I thought I was crazy,  I was conttrolled by the evil.

Am I making a miracle again? Another unbreakable presentation? I wonder, but now, I’m really flying…

Now, I have proved a principle that when a person is in horrible, he/she feels no afraid. The frighten of tomorrow’s presentation came around for a lot of day. Every day, my brain with nothing except the fear, the fear that I would  fail or be not good enough. The first time was so smooth made me frighten. If I was a green hand, I will have nothing to worry about. No matter fail or success, but now, my hope is higher than that, I must perfort better than my first try and better than others. I need this golden chance to prove I was the best, and the teacher choose me is right. 

"To go on a journey is often full of hardships, but so long as one lives he proceeds on his life’s journey."

Generally speaking, the situation today was not so bad. At least, the chemical classes were OK. It’s the third smooth week of it.

When I was a child, I thought chemistry was a very mysterious and funny thing, added something together would make a unthinkable result, maybe the color changed or had a little explosion. Now day, I found chemistry is a nightmare to me, very time i must be careful or I will be in danger. And the time I got along with chemistry was hard, and the result always weren’t good, such as the high school enter examination and the NMTE. Because of my little dream, I choose it, but now, I really feel conflict to it. however, the knot between us can’t open again. If I have another chance, maybe I will forgive it and take phsyic as my partner. That’s life, can’t be changed, it’s the fact, can’t be changed, just can be creative.

Or I just take it too much to my heart? No matter what, the result is I have no moon.

Because of the endless dream online, I had to get up at 5:45AM, and left home before 6:00AM. The sun still had behind the houses in city, the people in the street were extremly less. For a long time, I didn’t have such experience, since I left high school, that day has left me without saying goodbye. However, this feeling came to me again, a person, no feeling, vamos, vamos, the target was bus-stop and the school was far away.

"Looking at the crowded street, listening to my own heart beat…" I really want to be at that surroundings, just watch many people ups and downs, pay attention to their facial expession and their actions, happy and angry, boring and excited, however, I don’t have such time and such environment to do such thing. Every day, I must be the busy one of them. Have no won thought, finish my task, finish all the homework is the only thing in my mind.

The sky was dark, and it’s raining I really want to sleep in my bed and then surf online as I wish. Read the nwes of JEA and the world, of course, including my own blog- Mi Cielo, and my dream of website building. I was the opposite person when I am online and in real world. The part of me when online, I am so upward, and active but in fact I have little words with other an dpassive. Who knows how to change this funny situation? If two fo me can combite together, what a great!

At last, after with 226 for half an hour, I arrived at Wu Shan Apartment at 7:20AM. I got it, I wasn’t late. The physic experiment was smooth as the first time, and even be smoother than the first one. Just made some data, and then take a mark, that’s all. It’s much easier than the chemical one, so sometimes, physic is the easiest thing in the world, you don’t understand any principe of it, however, you can do it our without a hitch.

Too tired of me, so I fell asleep in the noon, and still be too tired when having physic classes in the afternnon, so I don’t know what I have heard or learnt.

I really want to escape from such life!!!

As everybody knows, generation gap exist, our home, our country and even the world. It comes to us so silently that we haven’t realized, however, it also left away without words, because we can solve it easily.

Still remember the day in senior three. I had no words with my mother, we didn’t have the same topic except my study and my mark. Because at that time, the study was not my pride, but my shame, so I wanted to escape, I refused to answer all that questions. As a result, at last, she just could asked, "What have you eaten today? ". Yet, I was too tired to that question, consequently, I shut my mouth solidly, and the bridge between us was cut down.

As the enter exam was over, I had a lot of time at home, surfing online I shared the happiness with her, despite she couldn’t understand most of my words, yet she tried her best to understand me. From that time, I opened a window to her again, and found the generation gap was recovered little by little.

As I enter the university, the life changed a lot. Sometimes I even found I was a child that I didn’t know anything and couldn’t consider something perfectly. I really need someone to lean on, and at the very time, she became my hero.

Because of my ignorance and my childish, she suffered a lot. Because of my carelessness, she had to come here again and again. Every time when she left, I would think what I had been satisfy, but I never noticed that she was 57 years old, and the roads leading to here were full of dust. The temperature was downing, the evening was coming and the people on the bus were more and more. I still had a comfortable dorm, however, she must face all the suffers. Because of me, she was willing to stand everything. And then, when she’s at home, she would think her only child day and night. Contrary, when she called me by telephone, I was so rude to her. Have such a great mother, why I never value her! Why I never think out a problem at her side?!

The generation gap was not made by our parents but us. We dig the gap , meanwhile, we can recover it as well. Use all our heart, feel at their angle, and we’ll know how to made it.

original essay: “代沟”能改变
(This passage is just translated from the origianal one, and for presentation.)