我的天

A famous Shakespeare, but my meaning is not other to be killed or not to be killed, my real meaning si the fact show i to be killed or not to be killed. Time is shorter and shorter, meanwhile the holiday is coming, however, a lot of tests are coming too.

My destiny, to be or not to be???

Sometimes you will think whether you have great expectaions in future. You will become a great personality ro a normal person forever. Some days you will hope soem mysterious things thell you the dstruth, however, you have known it’s impossible for them can foresee.

I really wanted to be a hero when I was very young. Protect the person i love, and protect my country or even the world, however, I haven’t had special power till now, how I can do that! And the real wrod won’t have UFO, and the ET won’t kill us, hwo can I make my litlle dream come true? Evil can’t overcome the justice, it’s the only thought I hold till now. No matter how difficult the way will to be, I will success at last.

In spite of the impossible dream have become a day dream, I also and other dream when I grew bigger. Such as became a scientist or doctor, maybe the combination of scientist and doctor, just like the heroine of "The X Files". And I wanted to be a policwoman or a firefighter, in that way, I can save people directly. Save others in danger, caputre them from gangs and take them out of fire. The danger for me is not a problem at all, because I never thought about if I didn’t died, but severely hurt, what a great pain I had to face. I never consider the result, I just kept a strong min to be a hero. How foolish I am!!!

I got a message about the real chairman is who has adult reason and care about children. This sentence mad me doutl for a long time, who did it mean? Now, I have asked the author , the answer is she hoped everybody can be such a person. With mature mind as well as a good hear to take care other, it’s very easy and very difficult at the same time. It’s easier than any of my dream, however, it’s very difficult for us to bring it true. Keep banlance between thinking about ourselves and others is very difficult. Because of out benfit, we can’t pay no attention to ourselves, meanwhile, the morality in the deep place of our heart promote us to be intensely concerned  about others.

Great expectation, what you are! Where you are! 

The chemical experiment classes came again. I felt a little afraid about it because the teacher said the classes had done it yesterday spent a long time to finish it. I was very slowly when doing each experiment, what I will be? The truth is out there, however, I must overcome it, so I felt a little light after thinking that. Be myself, nothing is impossible, in spite of any difficulty, they will become my defeating one.

With this mind keep in brain, I am doing my best to work. Pay all my haeart in ti, the little afraid can’t disapart me a little. Do the job as fast as possbile, as good as I can. Come and go in the classroom, shout at someone, ask for something. I was doing experiment, nobody cna distract me or stop me.

At last, the end was coming. It’s like a miracle to me. My speed was OK, the experiment could finish in time, without extra time plus. And the result it’s not so bad too, the last production output is 46.99%. I was content with that result yet it’s still not very perfect. I had do my best, I have nothing to forgive, so I’m happy.

The English classes in afternoon was so strange. Most of the people were late. Our class was beginning at 2:30PM, but till 2:25PM, just a few people had come. i don’t knon what’s wrong. Now I felt the English classes were so boring, but I still could easily focus myself in them better than other classes. I felt mor comofrtable when seeing English than in Chinese, though I don’t know the meaning of it very will, or I often gusee the meaning and make a big mistake, however, I still love it. I don’t know why!!! At the second class, the teacher asked me to answer a question. At that time, I really enjoyed myself, maybe for other will feel shame and have nothing to say, but for me, I was very exciting. Think out a short passage in English and then speak out loudly have become a self reaction to me, though the pattern may heard a little strange (Chinese form), at least I have words to say, and have a lot of confident to say. I think that’s the result fo everyday English writing.

I can be myself, it’s great. Express the things easily in English, so I feel good.

The thousand people square was over yesterday, we got 20 money per person. Though is seem the harvest is not very perfect, in fact, I have been very satisfy this ending. WE have out best day in the sun and I had reap so many experiment. So I am pround of what we had done.

I don’t know what guy I am. I left WuShan apartment, the only proper is writing my diary, and maybe finish my PA essay. If I don’t make it in a short time, it will become my knot for ever. If I don’t make it, I can’t focus my heart on anything. And the presentation in the next Thursday, a long time ago, I know what I want to say, but now, there’s no mind in my head.

Because of them, I can’t sleep well, though I had done a good job yesterday, and the physics body are collaging. I was awake at 6:30AM this morning, and fell asleep again until 9:00AM. And then opened the computer went to where I have to go. I don’t know whether there is something wrong with me. Most of the place I go is Spanish websites, how I can bear? Translate them in English and then use other sotware to read, it has been a fox way for me and I tke it easy. And even in sometimes I can get the meanting without translation. Yet, when I open the Spanish test book, I find I am a stupid, I don’t know almost everything. What person I am?!

After a long time minds were surging in my brain, I finally had some idea to write my PA essay. 2000 characters is not a big problem to me, the biggest problem is I haven’t paid may attention at my public admisistration class. And even I don’t know what Manage of Administration is.

I have finished now, but I still don’t know what I have written. I controlled mayself from scold the government department of public administration. You know, it’s really a very difficult thing to me. Because of long time blog writing, scold has been a very common way for me to write any essay, including this one.

I have write about 2880 characters, something wrong with me, if I started my writing, I can’t stop any more.

Public Administration Essay, you’re ending.

Gmail真的发了疯了，把1GB的邮箱扩展到2GB，超级有问题！！！如果不是登陆我自己Spymac的通行证，看到Magazine我还不知道呢！但原来已经是2005-04-01的事，但是我昨天才上过自己的Gmail邮箱，好像没有什么变化啊！但刚才上了，果然吓死我，果然升2GB了，有图为证

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