Big Wind
What a big wind here!! Outside the room, on the corridor, the wind just like can blow me away!!! My feeling is not so cool but a little cold, like a big ice putting in front fo a enormous electric fan, the little cold wind blows and blows.
However, even though with such a big blow, it also can’t blow away the thick clouds whether or not can be blew away maybe need a while to see. But the clouds are really very thick, just like the gray thick ones in my heart. Do you know it? Now, I’m sitting on the corridor and writting this diary, the wind never stopped even a minute, maybe I should believe it can do the thing in my hope, and believe the God, believe the pray of me he can hear an let it come true. I see a little shadow of my gel-pen now, the sun is coming perhapse. I ‘m changed my writting place now. Return to the room inside…
I really can’t be agree with the idea of some of my roommates. They want to have a air-condition machine here, in the little apartment. If I’m the old xrspook, I will scold at them at once, and say "You’re day dreaming!" But now, I prefer put all the complaint in heart, I can’t show it out though I feel bad. As they said, I know they were not kidding, if possible it really will happen. At the same time, I’m afraid this terrbile nightmare will really come true.
We are here is not for enjoying our comfortable life. Because their life in the past are too perfect, and hte life here is too awful, so they have such an idea. But we are from different families and different condition, I don’t like the life here, yet I prefer to stand it. The experience of my past tell me I must adapt to it. I change myself instead of the ourside environment changed. So I won’t have such day dream or eager.
Life need person to adjust to, do more exactly thing instead fo dreaming.
To be more realistic, do the most of the job by yourself, and leave the final result to the God.
