我的天

Of course, when online chatting, others won't know what you are, however, my experience was so different from the normal one.

In some forum in foreign countries, we(Chinese) get nationality prejudice, especially in America. They are talking hottly of their favorite things, so are you, then you want to participate. At the first time, I made a extremely fault, I said I was a Chinese at the very beginning, and then described my thought of that topic. The result is that no matter you're right or not, you won't get any reply. Because you had said a stupid sentence that you were Chinese. They pay no attention to us, and go on their talking. And I found I was the only one had such experience.

So at the second time, I said nothing about my nationality, and pretend I was an America, then, many people made comments to it. What's that mean? It means nothing but nationality prejudice. It proved nothing wrong with my English, but a little special of my real nationaliy.

I'm a Chinese, that's the fact won' t be changed! Why I have to conceal this when surfing on internet?!

However, even though with such a big blow, it also can’t blow away the thick clouds whether or not can be blew away maybe need a while to see. But the clouds are really very thick, just like the gray thick ones in my heart. Do you know it? Now, I’m sitting on the corridor and writting this diary, the wind never stopped even a minute, maybe I should believe it can do the thing in my hope, and believe the God, believe the pray of me he can hear an let it come true. I see a little shadow of my gel-pen now, the sun is coming perhapse. I ‘m changed my writting place now. Return to the room inside…

I really can’t be agree with the idea of some of my roommates. They want to have a air-condition machine here, in the little apartment. If I’m the old xrspook, I will scold at them at once, and say "You’re day dreaming!" But now, I prefer put all the complaint in heart, I can’t show it out though I feel bad. As they said, I know they were not kidding, if possible it really will happen. At the same time, I’m afraid this terrbile nightmare will really come true.

We are here is not for enjoying our comfortable life. Because their life in the past are too perfect, and hte life here is too awful, so they have such an idea. But we are from different families and different condition, I don’t like the life here, yet I prefer to stand it. The experience of my past tell me I must adapt to it. I change myself instead of the ourside environment changed. So I won’t have such day dream or eager.

Life need person to adjust to, do more exactly thing instead fo dreaming.