我的天

We had done a great job! We are the winner of the tug of war between 2005 Food 4 and ours (2004 Food 3). We are elder than them, we should win, and from the shape and size of us, we would win. In my opinion, we had no reason that we would fail in this war! At last, as a think, the Goddess of victory came to our side, however, which beyond my thought was that the real victory was more hardly than ideal.

Before the tug of war, I thought we would be sure win, yet it’s far from so easy. Maybe, no only me but some of my classmates thought the opponent was small potato that we could win without any hard working, so we didn’t pay all our attention at the first round. The first round beyond my thought, we had a standoff with our opponent. We would have three rounds match, which team wins two of them and that’s the winner. If two team didn’t have win or fail in 30 seconds, that means deadlock. A standoff will be judged.

We had better players, we should have more confident, why we would miss the first round, the Goddess came and went, and in some time, she even wanted to help our opponent, however, we reseized the initiative, and won at the second and the third rounds. We now had promoted in the next round, the opponent in future must be stronger. Hope we can be strong when we meet the stronger opponent, and win the champion at last :) Could you imagine when we win after two rounds how happy we were? We all handed up, shouting and cheering, just like the champion crown had on our head. That’s the power of us, the power of our comity. We had done a great job! Who had helping us? No one except ourselves! I can feel the glory that I am part of this collective. They can cheer me up, when you are down; they can share my happiness because I am one of them. Thank you very much; you give me strong hug in such damp cold raining day. With you, we all can confront any difficulty. Thank you a million!

And today 02-28 also a special day in my calendar — the birthday of JEA (exactly, 02-28 is not his birthday, he was born on 1968-02-29. It’s a leap year, and he was born on the leap day. So when he was born, all the people had to celebrate his birthday on 02-28, except the leap year I think. What a poor guy! How could he born on 02-29! What a lucky guy! Many fans including me celebrate such important day for him every year. ) And this is the forum of his birthday: FELIZ CUMPLEAÑOS JORGE ENRIQUE, as part of fans, how can I did nothing, so I had participated, if you are his fans too, you should also show something now, vamos!

So today really a very special day! We won the tug of war, and JEA won the heart of his fans :))))

It drizzled off and on all day. Before now, I don’t know there is such a word to describe a fine, gentle, misty rain. It seems never any in a short time. Though I don’t think it’s good for me, yet I have to face the reality that spring has come, and the good friend of her rain also has come together. Raining, raining, raining, whenever looking the sky, it’s raining, like the fog; you miss the blue sky and the warming shining. Moisture is just around you; even embrace you firmly, no matter you like or not. I hate such weather, however, the life tells me, its part of them, without hatred, the true love won’t come out, and the happiness won’t be deep and memorable.

Today, a bad news came with the misty rain. Another young lady left the spring of 2006 and preferred to go to the dark cold hell alone. She is a postgraduate, not everyone can be postgraduate. In my opinion, she is very bright and lucky. Just like the la niña (el niño: it’s Spanish means the son of the God, in Chinese it means 厄尔尼诺. I changed it a little I think the meaning of  la niña should be the daughter of the God). A bad example，to us and for our school. Are the students of SCAU fragile and so easy to collapse? What did the deaths want to prove? You are not the glass, and even though you are the glass you must be the toughened glass! Just because did get a good mark at the Official Entrance Examination, you selected such road that couldn’t come back again. Who you were! What did you want! You know there won’t be plane road all the life, why not went to die when you know you couldn’t went to Tsinghua University but SCAU. Became a part of official was your dream? That was the only thing you wanted to do in this world? How silly you were! The poor work hard everyday to keep alive, even though they would pay out their labor force to live in this world. You were also the human beings why you waste your life. In short, I think they all didn’t have a right philosophy, they have lots of knowledge more than the beggar, why they should opt a way that even though a fool won’t choose? What made them so silly?

They came and went, disappeared in the misty rain. Should we forget such person? Why they would do so?

已经拖了2天的4级单词Word List没有看，加上今天的就已经积累了3个Word List，再积累下去，我就死定了。谁叫眼睛突然来个这么奇怪突然的病。但幸好，今天已经好多了。还记得昨天晚上对着镜子看的时候清晰看到眼睑那里有个小黄点，大小和样子就和那些暗疮那样，生在那个地方，挤压着眼球舒服才怪。眼睛最舒服的状态是向下看或者把下眼睑拉下，我也不明白为什么那个动作最舒服，可能那样眼球就不受上眼睑那个东西的压迫。好消息是今天起来那个东西已经明显小了，压迫没有那么剧烈，自然就舒服了。

昨晚和一个Betty的粉丝聊了好久。她Q上的名字是蓝色海岸线，但到底该如何称呼就不大清楚了，Q上的昵称五花八门这是显而易见的。她也有个blog，在sina，名字叫做在晴朗天空飞，有个很奇怪的感觉就是这个女孩（比我大，应该说是姐姐吧）骂人真的好厉害，特别是对那个痛恨到极点的老板。几乎要向她老板实施满清十大酷刑的样子。当然，说说没有什么关系，发泄而已。只要那个老板不自认是她的老板就好了。她也给了张她画的JEA给我看：

  原来的照片

专业搞艺术的和我这些小白从根本上就是不一样：）其实应该把这个照片发到外国的论坛秀秀，证明中国的粉丝之中也有如此厉害的人物！毕竟我们是中国人，可以说是现在世界上发展得最快的国家，毋庸置疑的大国。

当你一直被一些东西烦恼着，一旦有那么一点的减轻你会觉得很解脱，突然有了动力。于是就靠着这么一点不知道怎么来的动力，我动了起来。开始做那本16开260页的《全国计算机考试二级教程——C语言程序设计》，以为自己对于C语言前面的部分应该还可以，但做起来才发现我还有很多缺漏，不堵住这些缺口，真的会害死人。还清楚记得龙哥（高中数学老师——黄传龙）说过“不要希望你不懂的东西考试就不会考”，考试就是考一些很那个的东西，就是要考死你，不考死你，那就不叫考试，那些出题的人就不会高兴，不会安心。所以，备考是一个不断发掘自己错误的过程。2005年4月的全国计算机考试二级C语言的笔试选择题第六题问软件测试的目的是什么，你知道答案是什么吗？——软件测试的目的是尽可能多地发现程序中的错误。非常完美的答案，我们的生活又何尝不是如此。你不去发掘就根本不知道你有多少的不足。所以我有了这样一个下定义的念头“哪一天你觉得自己完美无缺了，那是因为你丢掉了发掘自己不足的工具了。”

只有1.5个眼睛看世界，的确是个问题！该死的左眼什么时候才可以消肿啊：（（（（昨天医生说是眼疮，都不知道是个什么，为什么生在眼睛里，撞邪麽？不过华农上这个星期那么邪门相比之下我的邪就不算什么了。

医生说要白天滴眼水，晚上涂眼膏。知道为什么吗？因为只要那个眼膏涂在眼睑里你就肯定眼前蒙上糊里糊涂的一片。至于那个眼药水说是说什么日本进口，狗屁，想起那个食品微生物学的老师说其实阿莫西林的成本价就那么0.2元/粒我就很自然想到昨天32.2元的药费其实就值那么不到3.22元，生气也没办法，谁叫那是医院，要到医院就要被砍得一颈血。

左眼还是只有0.5个眼睛的视野，终于首先预览了自己单眼皮的样子。我不要单眼皮！！！！！！

说到那个眼水和眼膏，要滴眼水当然没有问题，但那个眼膏就很有问题了。怎么个涂法？？要涂在眼睑内，就是说要把眼睑翻开！我的天！怎么翻？检查沙眼要翻的时候都要了我的小命，现在还要我自己翻，怎么个翻！！！要抓住肿了起来的眼睑翻起来，除了痛，就是疼。无可奈何之下，只好上网去找资料。

原来翻眼睑有个诀窍就是眼球要向下看就简单多了，但我要往里面涂东西，向下看怎么涂？有见过有普通人的2眼睛可以看不同的方向的吗？啊！怎么活？于是就涂不成，于是就不涂了：（

不知道1.5眼的日子还要熬多久：（（（（（

看到的电脑打出来的字几乎都是模糊的，我也不知道自己是不是真的看到字了，谁叫自己无端端居然成了独眼龙了。

不知道为什么从今天中午开始就觉得左眼不妥，就是一直刺痛的感觉。开始看不出什么，自己中午对着镜子不断看也看不出什么，但感觉告诉我分明很不妥。中午打字的时候也是好像有点乱七八糟的感觉，因为打出来的字我真的不太肯定，但也许过些时间会好。因为从外表上看的确看不出什么。

下午上的是科学检索，也许太认真了，所以没有什么感觉。

但在回家的路上，一个人独处的时候越发难受。闭上眼睛也不是，睁开更是痛。不知道发生了什么。知道刚才吃饭之前，能明显看出眼睛是肿了起来，但自己的双眼皮还是分明能看到的。但就是吃饭过后大概30分钟的光景，双眼皮已经几乎完全消失了。 如此明显的变化，爸居然一点都不知道，因为，他根本就没有看过我一眼，当我脱掉眼镜，叫他看看我的眼睛的时候，他就问了我一句：“为什么会这样？”我知道为什么就好了，其实我想要他明白的是我该不该现在就去医院看看到底发生了什么。但他给我的回答是：“休息一下……”当时我真的生气到了极点，疼的不是他，但他怎么就可以说一些好像一点都不重要的事，很想哭出来，但还是不哭的好。现在，我没有哭的本钱。

现在，我还是自己去医院好了……

回来了，去医院回来了，除了花掉了39.2元的药费和有个安稳以后什么也没有得到。我出去的时候，爸还奇怪地问我，那么晚出去干什么。（当时是晚上8点多）坐在车上的时候，睁眼不是闭眼也不是，睁眼我真怕别人怕我不敢坐在我隔壁，至于闭眼，我很清醒，但却要做这个动作。

到了医院还转了个圈，嘿，正门没有开，只把那个急诊的门开了，只好从正门兜圈回到急诊的小门。挂号处护士们忙个不停，但我看到的只是那个好像是护士长手臂上的红字“ER”。然后就上了三楼，那个医生正趴在椅子上（因为他把椅背反了过来，所以是趴在椅背上）看电视，看到我的出现冷冰冰地问了一句“做咩”然后就是在那张桌子旁边不到5分钟的“查看”和开药。就这样，完工了！交钱和拿药的地方可以说是门可罗雀。这就是晚上9点，冷冷清清的大医院。急诊的诊室还是忙个车水马龙，而其它地方则 休闲得很。这就是我用1.5个眼睛看到的医院另一面，很悠闲，很冷清的一面。如果医院天天如此，都没有人有病要去看医生，该多好。

回来了，但爸还是没有“真正地”看过我一眼，也许他害怕，也许他觉得恶心吧。我走的时候他居然没有一点要和我一起去的意思，哪怕是装模作样问上一句也好啊，没有，一句也没有。没有，没有就算了，我今天的心注定是冰冷冰冷地：（