我的天

2005-10-14, I translated a much exited essay – Un Hamlet lleno de estrellas . It said that JEA would take part in Hamlet，could you believe how happy I was? From that time, I told myself I must read Hamlet out and out, I must understand all the roles in that book, so in many ways, I did my best to reach my dream. I downloaded the MP3 from BBC, and also the cartoons about Hamlet. I think, I was ready now, though not so enough. The play will on show in March this year.

Just a few days ago, I wrote a new log – 哈姆雷特的新悬念–2006-02-17 here . At that time I still didn’t know the bad news, though it seemed a little abnormality. And today, I saw a almost 100% bad news from Martha (JORGE ENRIQUE ABELLO – FORO- :: View topic – HAMLET COLOMBIA)

It means: The photo of 哈姆雷特的新悬念–2006-02-17 is old, and now JEA is recording the TV Merlina Mujer Divina, so the schedule of him is crossing, and she thought whether JEA would in the theater to play Hamlet that was rather impossible. Oh, that’s a super bad news to me. Why such things happen??? I’m standing by now, and the bad news came! Input "Jorge Enrique Abello Hamlet" in Google, you can find Historia del festival iberoamericanos, that’s the news which is in English talks about the  Theater Festival of Colombia, and you can see the big show Hamlet. The cast of Colombia and the director of Mexico that means it must be a play contain a great deal of Latin style. The player will say Spanish, and the scenario has carefully rewritten in Colombia Spanish. That must be a excellent job. So no matter JEA will take part in or not, if I can, I will download and watch.

The good news is I spend a lot of time in Hamlet, and reaped a lot that I didn’t know before. Having the courage to read the book of Shakespeare is very good enough. Though most of its words I don’t know at all, and now I still can’t be accomplished in this play, I have satisfied. Because I have exerted myself in doing such a thing.

And today also the first time of my badminton classes. I was playing with my partner, and then my teacher threw a ball to me, and asked me to test it. I didn’t know what happened at all, and just did it. And then, after a test, she asked me what I thought about that ball. I had no idea at all, instead she said that seemed the same as the old one, and then left away. Till now, I haven’t known what happen?! Why she chose my partner and me to test the new badminton. How can I classify this thing?

Bad news or good news, that’s the question, and both of them can change unconsciously, it’s the art of our life.

Azrael just like stay here and never want to leave any more. Today, another life went away in SCAU. Today is just the third day of semester, even though the beginnings have so many unpleasant things what about future. It’s a bad news to all the staff and students here. The star of train trace was a woman, someone said she had no relationship with SCAU, however, why she selected our school to end her life. Did she think that’s a little tough to us? If everyone who want to die will come to SCAU, what our school will be? It couldn’t be a funeral home! It’s just the new start of this year, why they select the way of leaving away?!

The atmosphere is depressed. A ground people came together and began the topic of the death. It’s not the end of the world, why not talking about others?! If you are one of us, could you bring in other topic without the death? Maybe the top of the school didn’t go to pay for the school, or the Bodhisattva went to have holiday and never came back. Of court, this is just for fun; I don’t believe any God or Bodhisattva.

Yesterday, my professional courses began. The first one is called Food Microbiology (《食品微生物学》) and the other is Food Chemistry (《食品化学》）. Both of them are talking about some food theory. I should fully change my thought that a good cook cooks a delicious food just by his/her experience. Believe or not, with more professional knowledge, using scientific method to machining, even a green hand can do a great job. It seems have a great difference to our Chinese culture; because until now our good cook doesn’t need scale go with them. The weight of food always likes a random feeling, we never use exactly number in our book, that’s mystery, and the secrets pass by generation to generation.

The secrets are waiting us to crack.

Death can solve everything? Is it the end? Twenty years old, a bright future is coming; it’s just the beginning of our voyage, why he chooses going to die to end everything? What about his family? What about his classmates? What about his teacher? He can easily go away, however, what about the people who love him, what about the person who take care of him! Is dead an end? The painful of others will be endless. You went away, but left a flood of sadness, troubles.

You went away, and what about your parent? You are unfilial! As a man, what responsibility you had done? Your parents had brought you up for twenty years, what have you done to render back? Did you think your were the son of three, so you could move your load on others? How can you be so selfish! You went away, with the happiness of your childhood together with the bright teens, with so many good remembrance, you went away. Did you ever think about what you had left behind? The pain of lost a son and brother that the wound won’t never be covered. You went away, how you could leave suffering behind and take away the joy! They won’t meet the young man any more. It’s time for your parents to enjoy their life. You went away, never bearing your dream and others hopes. You really made them very disappoint，in fact, by now, I can say, you despaired them indeed. What had they done, why they had to deserve it?! Other’s son! My schoolmate!

Life is always full of ups and downs. Didn’t you know? Did you only catch the meaning of words, I’m sure, and your heart didn’t understand it very well. Even though the SARS broke out, even others terrible diseases appeared, we human being have never given up. You just failed in four courses of X (sorry, I don’t know how many courses he had learn last term), did you heard your schoolmate had fail seven of eight, however, he passed them. Did the failure really hurt you so much? Did the devil or the head of them Satan control your soul? Or the Bodhisattva didn’t bless you? No, you ruined yourself. 

It’s not the only case that university student went to end their life. It’s time for us to brown study it? After the great battle College Entrance Examination, the youth think every storm have stop, they just face the vast sea which is calm forever, however, after two year of learning at university, such kinds of thought is completely wrong. The CEE is just the ticket that you can sail. There are sharks in the sea, and the wind won’t easily give you a fluent trip, from now on you would have to face N mol frustration than before.

Death is not the end!!! Death is not the perfect solution!!!

From now on, the log which I write in school must in English, because I have to practice this sword before the CET-4 battle. I have been lazy enough, it’s time to change. I don’t like make any excuse, which just make me cheat me and lie to others. You can see, I even don’t know how to write a sentence fluently.

The heart and the hand must in the same step, I can write out when I have any idea. The days before, it’s just a very common ability for me, but now… ability and capacity seems like each others, however we must find out the difference and remember them firmly. Ability emphasizes the action, and capacity more used to describe the power you can learn or earn or not. If a word you can describe very easily in English, I think there won’t be nothing to worry about it, however, the real word is far from so simple, how I can remember so many words in a few months, and beyond it, I should deeply tell the differences between them, that’s the question. ("that’s the question" make me easily remember Hamlet, he said: To be or not to be, that’s the question…A famous sentence of our price.)

Let’s talk about the first day of this term (the spring of 2006, in fact, I should call it spring of 2005, because it belongs to the academic year of 2005). I will learn my professional courses from this term. And the first course of them is called General Experiment of Food Chemistry(《食品化学综合实验》), it’s just the translation of me, because after looking through the textbook, I can’t find its English name. No matter what happen I should like this course, it’s my professional course and the teacher is belong to our food college; marking a bad effect on them seems not good for my future. And it’s time for me to work hard, I can’t have the idea of study one thing is to face the final examination and then forget them completely. Maybe one day I should live on this course, it seems the only knowledge I can depend on. Without the sharp point, what I should be proud of ?!

I am changing…

不知道为什么看中国的纪录片和看外国的纪录片感觉就是不一样。今天补看的是昨天的“巨大建筑巡礼(Mega Structures)：砂中炼油”这是NGC（National Geographic Channel）的节目，觉得自己最喜欢看的就是医学和建筑的这些科学节目了，你要我看着那个章鱼在水中如何随着背景而变色我真的会觉得很郁闷，但看这些感觉就很不一样，会使我产生一股冲劲，自己也很想去干。这也许就是那种潜意识的调动，它没有直接叫你要积极参加，但它所表现出来的东西就会让你产生一种参加的冲动。

还有一种很新奇的现象，就是那些节目向来没有多少让你用情感思索的时间。所有你看到的都是你想都没有想过的东西，虽然你从来没有见过，但你却对那个东西很有兴趣，自动自觉着迷。因为那些新知识不是枯燥的理论，不是不断地给你做名词解释，而是一个个实例，最最隐晦，无法用镜头和口述说得清楚的东西都已经通过动画清晰地表现出来了。这样很好。同时间长度的图片或动画的信息量我觉得远比文字来得要生动和多，更适合人类的接受。也许在制作的时候要花费更多的时间但收效我觉得是要比单纯用言语好。

电视和电台有什么不同？电视多了一个视频的环节，是连续的镜头使更真实的世界可以呈现在我们面前。而中国的好多好多节目则老是忽略了如此一个环节。他们喜欢找个主持人就在那里谈天说地，也许，那里面真的有很多的信息量，但无论主持人的表情如何丰富，没有视频图像或者图片的支持，这样的单纯说和听收音机有什么不同！还记得还有那些电视说书，真不明白那和拿个收音机听有什么不一样。要在书中找足够的资料要比找视频或图像资料简单得多，但显然时代的发展就需要人不断地改进，还停滞在音频的阶段显然不行。我这样说似乎太缥缈了，以《网罗天下》为力，梁文道和另一个替他人员主持就很不同，前者给我们看到他所说的网页的时间是很多的，花花的屏幕，即使只是字也比一个人说的好，我宁愿看着那些我大概看不清的字也不愿意看着主持人在说或者读他的知识。虽然两人的信息显然都是从网络上收集起来的，但两人的表现方法很不同。就像我们用文字和图像表现弄一个程序的方法，单纯的文字真的会令人很郁闷，你会有不想看下去的想法，但有了截图问题就很不同了，虽然截图增加了写方法那个人的工作量，但也许点击率却可以增加几倍，尽管有图和没图的文字量一样。这就是图像的威力。而现在或者未来要大行其道的我想一个是录象，把整个操作方法都录制下来，有动的，有解说，就如个老师在手把手，有了实际操作，那些隐晦难懂的东西自然会迎刃而解。但这样做也有个前提——必须有足够的网络空间来存放这些“老师”，有了“落脚点”才可以交流传播。但随着P2P软件的发展，这个落脚点应该不难寻觅，因为每台单一的电脑其实都可以成为一个有几亿亿观众的舞台。

386的机子能看图片吗？我们为什么要有双核心？我们为什么要把系统从Windows 3.X升级到Windows 2003？在没一次升级换代当中，信息的呈现方式都在发生着改变，不是吗？