我的天

I should have a brand new start, my school should have too! Today is 200-03-02, a new start of March, hope the depress thing flow away and never come back. We live in a peaceful and fortunate place, we should feel love, at the same time learn to love others. Care the people beyond you; try your best to enjoy this colorful life. In other aspect, maybe the world is not so black, and you are not alone, share your feeling, and let’s other step in to your heart. I’m sure that must not so bad. We should learn to trust each other, and believe that they really can help us.

Hope the ones have gone will bless others; persuade them not to fall in the same hole as them. And I also hope the ones who want to follow the bad example that could think again and again. You still have a lot of beautiful dream that haven’t come true, how you can slip away?! If possible, I hope I can give you some courage, don’t give up, tomorrow is another day, and will be better!!!

This morning, I joined the group made by my old brother which call "call lao ye! " It must be heard a little strange; in fact it’s a dialect of Guangzhou. But the true meaning of it, that’s the question, I don’t know how to write it out. It’s a brand new start. I joined this ground, it would be stronger and better, and I think my brother and me in some way are very similar. At first, both of us are Sagittarius. I don’t so believe constellation, but in some style we are the same and that just accord with the character of Sagittarius. So even though I don’t believe, however, the accidental things consciously or unconsciously till happen.

In the second badminton, my teacher declared the way of final examination of this term. Those kinds of movement I don’t know how to describe in English formally, so I’d better not create some words now. Let me check it out and then tell you. It’s a brand new challenge for me and my partner. Just 6 weeks left, we should work hardly from now on.

Have you prepared well to envisage the brand new start?

I don’t know when the end is. This morning, another female postgraduate left our world. I can see, that must be a dark, cold silence morn, however, after that everyone in my school can’t be quintet again. She was the fourth of this semester. Why the evil came and never planned to leave? The professors, the associates and all the tutors here can’t keep calm anymore. University is a place where can educate a man not a place that is suitable to end one’s life! Let’s be moment silence. I’m not a bad heart people, I hope that kinds of thing won’t befell on as again, however, as everybody known that she was the first and was not the last as well. The suggestion of the death is so clear, even though a fool can smell it. Once we didn’t light a fire to get away the dark that has been discovering, there must be devil’s mystery hidden in it. I think just the scientific light can solve that problem; during this time we should have more courage to envisage reality. For a long time, we exert ourselves to flee from it, however, after so much, can we flee still? We can’t flow, we can’t flee, and we have to know how to face.

Depression is a great reason of death. This afternoon, my food microbiology teacher used about 25 minutes talking about the death, and its brother depression. He told us a story that when a person couldn’t walk out of the place where his/her was very familiar in evening, and he/she just could walk a round at that place. That means he/she must have some problems in his/her heart. In fact, the real barrier is not in the dark and can’t be the dark of night, but he/her loses the compass of his/her heart. In short, he/her couldn’t walk out the round in his/her heart. (Let’s talk about mind and heart. Heart emphasizes the emotion; on the other hand mind is most used to describe the logic thought.) His/Her maybe depress, so it’s time to do something.

We are not the God; we don’t have any capability to rob the people from the Death. We are green hands in front of HIV; we are also the green hand in front of suicide. The best way to stop it is to prevent any those thought grow in our mind. Prevention is better than cure, that’s because most of times we just can treat instead of cure, we can’t have confidence that we are surely overcome the enemy of any kind. As a human being, the entire thing we can do is do our utmost to treat it, not cure it.

Jump, jump, jump, hey! Our school is not for jumping from the top of any building. It’s a place which educates people instead of ending one’s life. Dead, Dead, Dead, dad, could you tell me that’s the end?