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金色的网络回忆

多日不写中文，今天我决定不写英文了，英文写得太多就会质量下降，特别是只有输出没有输入的时候。

早上起床的时候觉得秋风又起了，一下子似乎感慨良多。2000年的中秋节，那个初三的中秋节就是在这个房间中，几个死党在这里狂打仙剑，但没有“爆机”。三年之后，2003年的秋天，那个金色的18岁，我则把梦留在了BLF，留在了JEA那里。虽然已经重装系统，但那些珍贵的邮件资料我依旧保留至今，当年我用的是Foxmail收163邮箱的邮件，幸好朋友的每个回信我都用.txt格式保存了，要不信息可真会呜呼哀哉，但自己发出去的信件就如泼水一般，永远找不到了。翻阅从前的邮件，一种甜蜜油然而生，笑容很自然地挂到了嘴角。18岁原来可以那么天真的。没有名利，没有戒心，只有真诚，在那个网络纯正的时代，我畅游互联网，那个真正的Internet，没有现在那么多的拦截，这里不许上，那里不许上，就如如果的历史一般，一去不复返了，哎~~~~ 岁月不饶人啊！

和我往来得最多邮件的要数dl215了，她是个很亲切的姐姐。她很耐心地指导我很多东西，比如说如何用Flashget批量下载，那个技能可是大有用途啊！！！不过现在虽然免费相册的泛滥，图片的地址不规则了，所以批量下载很多时候都用不上，但那个技能真的很有用。还有一些很专业的意见，我指的是那些关于探求我们共同嗜好方法的意见。那时的BLF粉丝可以说是以军团出现的，不是我之前或现在的单打独斗，那是个挖料更新信息的服务大家的粉丝组织，核心队员毋庸置疑是danzhu。记得2004年我高考的语文作文题目是“沟通”，我真的觉得是千言万语无法够表达在那区区作文纸上啊！那些与网友的真诚沟通，那些在当时对我来说完全陌生的西班牙语网站的闯荡，沟通到底对我以为着什么？！也许我18那年所做的沟通是虚拟性质的，无法转化为可触摸的实物的，有点缥缈的，但我肯定那些经历会影响我一辈子。

当Yahoo和163推出无限邮箱后我马上申请和升级了，同学无法理解我到底用那么大的邮箱作什么，她们不明白我为什么不删除邮件。因为她们眼中和我感知的邮箱很不一样，邮箱对她们来说是个中转站，但对我来说，“无限的空间+稳定的服务”对我来说就代表永恒了，何时何地我都可以翻查到自己的过去邮件，无限邮箱就等于一个无限的备份电脑，个人电脑免不了重装换代，相比之下那些稳定的邮箱供应商稳定多了。同学大概没想过当年我有发疯似向邮箱上传视频，并把邮箱公开，最终被163冻结邮箱的经历。

在金色的18岁，我有金色的网络回忆，朋友们教会我网络是用来方便自己服务他人的。

This morning we arranged our tutor to describe the thing two days before; however, our boss knew it a few hours ago before me met, so he gave us guidance to that problem immediately. I felt warm up again, now I worship him more then ever. He’s really very sagacious and experiential, full of passion and calmly at the same time. There are many things I should learn from him, and he must be my idol from now on undoubtedly. What a magic he could light me up after a few words! Simultaneously, a strong notion pass on me – everything is OK and all the things were under his control. He’s our harbor which we are safe, and he shreds light on us just as the God guards his children. We are not orphans, at least our boss still care about us.

Why there are tutors? He/She could be a teacher of someone forever. No only they could enlighten us on professional subject, and the ways of their life could be our models too. In shorts, they are the guide both in our study and daily life. Maybe we will leave our professional areas after graduate, yet the principle of being a good guy would help us all our life. I’m really lucky I had a good tutor before, have a good one now, and maybe continue the fortune in my future (during postgraduate studying).

The slogan in the high school game when I was in grade three was "Light the Fire". I appreciated that idea very much, for I enjoyed the feeling of being light up. Hope such kind of passion fire could continue for a long time.

Still remember one year ago, a teacher complained in our class that the students now were worse than the ones in the past. Doesn’t our ability really come up to eldership? That’s difficult to say, but one thing is very clear – there are more people in one class nowadays. Maybe I was born in wrong year, at that time too many people came to world. On my road of growing up, I had experienced those more than 60 students in one class, and more than 500 students in our grade. Could the teachers take all responsibility for us? Were they sure they could give everyone enough time? Impossible, undoubtedly impossible, yet, who should take responsibility for this?

There are more and more students in university, more than the threshold ability of school, however, this excess recruit student still can’t satisfy the jillion growing population. So, there must be someone to become victims, I think, we are just some of them. The universities low down their standard to recruit more and the only solution is low down the quality of teaching as well. Oh, God! We become university students; it’s a good thing or terrible nightmare?

Yesterday, the teacher asked us to answer whether we want the yeast to die or not, a question of to be or not to be. It’s difficult to answer because we hadn’t done any experiment about this before and no one had done that, but then it became the mockery of them. Could they answer how many stars in galaxy? The first question has the same difficulty as the second one. Were we really ridiculous? Others didn’t explore some areas but we have a try, and when we take on the first step, the professional laugh at our idealism. If possible, the professional should discover the unknown world for us first, instead of our blindly grope. On one hand, they encourage us to be creative, yet on the other hand, they collapse our dream from the very beginning inhumanly.

Who could take responsibility for us?

This afternoon, I was absolutely desperate after consulted with a teacher. She pulled down almost all we had done before, in her professional opinion, we are wrong from the very beginning, and we should not have such idea that she thought its idealism. We just senior, have three years experience in university, and just met microbes less than two years, yet she are almost or already together with that thing more than thirty years. The plan of us didn’t hold water in front of her, but it doesn’t mean we never clearly think about it before, instead, I did spent plenty of time, many sleepless night to polish our plan. If I have never hard working before, I won’t so desperate now. It seemed she had destroyed everything – our plan and my heart.

There’s nothing wrong with her, so my tutor, and even me, yet it must be some gray area among us. I was so stupid that I could not persuade her to accept my idea. I’m not wrong totally, however, the qualitative thought of her dominated many things, unless I took out some evidence to proof myself. She said I confused her, so she couldn’t understand what I really what to do. I was also astonish when we began our topic because all the process just liked we lose faces on our own initiative. Nobody would expect this terrible thing. Beyond all doubt, I was the absolutely loser of this meeting.

On my way home, I soliloquized all the time, sometimes singing, or talking, fortunately, there were rarely people on the road. After about two hour, I calmed down at last. I don’t like make anything excuse for myself, I confessed our plan really had shorts, and I have tried my best to overcome it, but no resulted, we had to lay it down. I felt a little innocent, even the experienced professional couldn’t give us any advice, and how we green hand could solve it perfectly by ourselves? The microbial teachers in college are professionals in their fields, maybe good at bacteria, yeast or actinomyces and so on. Unite them together, it must be a strong team, however, there are also blank areas among them. I just fell in to that helpless place, one of them thought another knew much about something, but in fact another was not so omnipotence in that field. Oh, what should I do?

Sometimes I feel I’m a homeless child, don’t belong to here and there, and was alone all the time. Yesterdays, I learnt a new word – extraterrestrial, you could explain in a very simple word – alien. The student cross subjects are very difficult.

I’m just an ordinary man could do ordinary thing, thus it is necessary for me to have a breath and dream. As the custom of xrspook, I won’t give up, even after a really huge strike. There must be a way, and the hope is out there.

My tutor and my teammates, we should trust each other, I believe there must be a way out.

Soybean is a very ordinary farm product in China, so we have many ways to cook it. A few thousand years ago, we Chinese invented a soybean food – tofu, however, the name of such food was named not by Chinese but Japanese. They learned the method of making this from China and carried forward it to all over the world.

Milk is daily food in Europe; as a result, they also know how to change the shape of milk to create more other dairy. Cheese is one of most famous dairy around the world, and it’s the favor of many foreigners, and the necessary of their life.

Yesterday, Dr. Aimin Jiang presentated a livestock product class for us. He is a famous profession in this area, so in my opinion, half of the class he just showed off himself, yet if I were he, I have confident to make a parade too. He said the Cheese made in China must be better than which are made in Canada. For China has a long history of Cheese making (exactly I should say we have abundance experiment in tofu making), however, Canada just has about one hundred years’ history. Without doubt, we should be good in making Cheese. [xrspook：I just repeated the words by Dr. Jiang.]

Dr. Jiang said the most core technology of tofu and cheese is coagulating the casein in soybean-milk and milk. We use different technique to achieve this coagulate. I’m not familiar to cheese at all, even don’t know what is the exactly taste of traditional cheese, yet I have eaten many kinds of tofu. I believe, with such basic, Chinese could do a good job in cheese making, but we need more time to grope. In cheese’s field, we are just green hands now.

One thing I still wonder, the consumption of milk in China is still growing; the average of milk consumption is very low. Do we really have so many milk to make superior cheese to satisfy a small amount of wealthy and foreigners who live in China? Ten ton milk just could condense one ton cheese, as the separate of the whey cheese boost its price sharply too.

I’m not a professional in livestock product, yet I know in some technical degree, Chinese tofu are similar to foreign cheese, but they are still different food from shape, odor, flavor and custom, so they are not identical forever.